That Green Thing

when i hear my father and brother discuss about their air tickets, when they should set off and what to pack and stuffs, i quietly go to my room, close the door, bang my head continuously on the cupboard, pull my hair till they all fall out, morph into the Incredible Hulk and stare at that green thing in the mirror. 2 minutes later, i walk out and act all normal again.

jealous? nah...who says i'm jealous?

...ok, this double identity thing is hard to keep up with. my alter ego's giving me a hard time. alright, alright, i'm jealous. envious. man, it's such a torture. i really dread school now. i refuse to count down to the number of days left before school reopens. i refuse.

i'm glad they get to go and all. i mean, i do hope they'll enjoy themselves. but i'd be a much happier person if i get to go too. unfortunately, i dont think it's gonna happen any time soon. my father asked me if i wanted anything from USA. i wanted to tell him to look out for Role Model tees, but then i figured he wouldnt know what they look like so i told him not to get me anything. plus, america's expensive.

yeah, you're thinking what i'm thinking. i guess i'm pretty much stuck here.

GASP! poor mom! she's gonne be stuck here... with me! shucks. i shall try to make it the best 2 weeks of our lives when the time comes (and secretly wallow in self-pity).a women's household! yes. i'm thinking...lots of relaxingironing, dancingmopping, and nice flickskorean dramas. sigh. i love my mom.

updates

The Commonwealth Games. now, here's something that i'd never thought i would really watch. afterall, it is because of these games that made the screening of some of my favourite programs postponed to a later date. i should hate them actually. surprisingly, i've actually grown to like watching them.

now swimming, i like. just check out the physics of the swimmers. males and females. for starters, they look like they've got really long bodies. the ladies look tough, and the men look good. i just love watching the competitions. it's actually something for me to do since i pretty much have nothing to do anyway. yeah it sounds pretty sad. but come on. i mean, hey, who knew there's a dragon in the middle of the Welsh flag? literally. huh? huh? bet you didnt know that. see? i learn too. :) plus, it's kind of my motivation to work out more.

my dad's going to California in may. not for work, but to "check that place out". and he pretty much has some of his expenses paid. my brother's probably going as well since he's having his holidays and... has enough cash.

i am so so so jealous right now.

never in my wildest, wildest dreams did i ever think that i'll be able to go to america. and it's still a dream. because i'm not going. this is a point in my life where i get the right to really hate school. school. ugh. that..that thing. that place where we get educated. bah. UGH.

i can't believe i'm missing out because of school. why couldn't it be april? or march? like now? i mean, money is a problem. but i'm just gonna find something to place hate on, and i choose school. Damn you, school. DAMN YOU.

What's in this head

i received my results via sms yesterday. the sms of doom...light? and thank you earth, wind, and fire, because i passed. that's right, i made it to year 2. let me just say, it wasnt so much of a joy ride while waiting for that sms to come(oh yeah, i need to buy Jason Mraz's "Waiting For My Rocket To Come". ANNA!).

but thank you god because i PASSED and it's all that matters. hoho.

surprisingly, i actually did better in this semester than the last. my GPA's slightly higher this time round. it's still far away from what's needed to enter a local university, but hey, it's an improvement. plus, are u ready for this...get ready...i actually got an "A" this time.

i know people. scream your lungs out. pull your hair. quick, drop your jaws and stare at me in disbelief!

that's what i did.

done? alright. to make you feel better, i got a D+ for BNT. (ok now you can turn to your friends and say,"yup, that's still her. mmhmm.") I mean, truth is, D+ definitely is a sucky grade. but it also means no supp paper, and for that, i'm thankful.

and i'd have to give huge credit to this person from another class who helped me out with my java. pure genius.

had a huge dinner at a restaurant yesterday because it was my grandmother's 85th birthday. anna and i just crapped alot. alot. it's been a while. that was fun, babe. :) we really should just start speaking in coded languages.

anyhow, it's still the hols and i'm still jobless, but i have this theory. if i cant find a job, i'll at least try to do something meaningful this holiday. taking up courses, doing volunteery work. heck, even drawing. which is why..i'm most probably gonna take up boxercise with my friend! okay before you burst out laughing and start rolling on the ground, let me just say that i think it's gonna be pretty cool! it's something to do, it's new, and it even keeps me fit. so why not?

also, volunteery work. i'm looking for places that just need simple volunteery work. like a child care center, or an old folk's home or something. either that, or some major organization that will bring me to africa to do volunteery work for the people there. sincerely. i'm not trying to play angel. those who know me know that i'm definitely NOT an angel(heh). i just wanna help.

oh yes, of course i stupidly, once again now, stupidly, got myself involved in some school workshop thing. now i have to go back to school next week to help my teacher out. STUPID, arent i?

ho. there i am, wanting to volunteer for organizations and stuffs, and here i am, complaining about being sucked into helping my teacher out at school. oh the irony. oh, me.

Oscars. It's all about the look, baby.

the Oscars. i loved it.

why? because it had everything Star Awards didnt have. the class, the glamour and the fashion. yeah, that's what i am. judgemental.

here's the difference between the Hollywood actors and the funny mediacorpers.

Oscars: the men showed up in classy tuxedos that really just didnt do anything to them except it made them look smart. and good looking too. their hair, nicely combed back. a little bow at the neck completed the whole look. most of the women showed up in simple yet elegant dresses that sparkled along with their radiant faces. it spelled G-L-A-M-O-U-R.

Star Awards: the men competed with the women to try to look as eccentric as possible. thus, we saw men showing up with hair extensions, or straightened(too much)fringes. different sets of clothes being put together to form an outfit. chains and weird flower brooches dangling on their jackets. scarves coming out from under the jacket? sure. real classy. as for the women, they tried too hard. admittedly, not all of them are like that, but there were those who wore weird little dresses that just didnt spell G-L-A-M-O-U-R, girlfriends.

gosh, i'm blunt. :)

and there's that touch of class and elegance at the Oscars. for one, no freaky Zoe Tay-auntie behaviour. freeeaaaky.*shudders*

and let me just say that Hilary Swank looked fabulous. and wow, that body. DARN thin people! ugh.

I'll Be There For You

i just watched the last episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S Season 10 and it's gotten me all sad again.

yes, it was a re-run. yes, i watched the entire re-run of F.R.I.E.N.D.S from season 1 to 10 on Star World. just like i watched the entire original series on Channel 5. but back then, i was comforted by the thought that Star World would still be showing the sitcom. so there, i had it. i knew weekdays got me bad, but i knew that 11 pm every night would somehow find a way to make me feel better. every weeknight.

it's so amazing, because i even managed to get someone who started out not being able to tell "Chandler" and "Joey" apart to turn into someone who reminded me that, "There's F.R.I.E.N.D.S tonight." My Mom. i got her to watch one episode, and she then followed the next, and the next, and the next...all the way till the end. she LOVED the show. she even safely tells me now that her favourite character would have to be "Phoebe". yay mom, me too!

okay, so i know this is a crappy post, but i really think i should give credit to the show that is partly the reason why i'm still not taking anti-depressant pills now.

OKAY, I'M A HUGE FAN. hell, i even got them on my desktop wallpaper, so sue me! :D

Sunday nights, that's all i got now. good thing it's the holidays.

ps: i can't believe i didnt watch "LOST" when it was shown on channel 5. it's darn good.

pps: uh-oh. i think we're all witnessing a serious case of the overprocessed-tv syndrome. i've cross over to the far end now. the extreme end.

nutto.

They all Suck.

this episode on Oprah the other day talked about this tragic story of a college girl who slowly planned her suicide and her frequent visits of a website that had encouraged her to do it while she was alive, contemplating it.

ProChoice- that was what that website was called.

apparently, Pro Choice is a website that tells people different ways of committing suicides. the different types of pills, the different styles, how to make suicide less painful; stuffs like that. postings were left on the site by different people on their ideas on suicide, and one of them wished the girl good luck on her attempt.

the thought of this makes me want to hurl. what do i think of this? i think this is sick. i think the idea of a site like this is disgusting, sickening, and just unacceptable. why would anyone want to set up such a website? why HAS IT BEEN set up? why is suicide ENCOURAGED? WHY? of all the things we can do in the world, of all the things we can encourage in the world...SUICIDE? is that it?

i didnt know the existence of such a website. in fact, i think there are plenty more around. okay, so it's called Pro Choice. which means... what? telling the people who're thinking of ending their lives, that suicide might just be the right thing for them?!

and leaving comments on top. "i hope your plan works for you. good luck."
that purely disgusts me. it just sickens me to think that there are people out there who thinks it is okay to encourage another person to end his/her life.

suicide has become such a common thing in today's world, it's scary. i'm sure everyone has thought about it. i'm sure there're times in your life when you feel your lowest, and you think to yourself," maybe i should just end it once and for all." Or maybe just a random thought? "what happens if i end my life? will it hurt? what will i become?"

no? well, i can say i have. but so what? it's just a thought. i dont contemplate on doing it. that's a different thing. i DONT encourage it. that's the main thing. i cant say much because i'm a girl of no power at all, but i think sites like this sould be shut down. period.

ANYWAY, onto unimportant issues(concerning me.heh.). i was at the cinema today and this group of chinese speaking teenage boys sat behind us.(i know you're going, "here she goes again!" *dreads* sorry. :)) now because a few of their girl-friends( or female friends as i should say) were sitting in front(next to me), they started kicking their chairs for fun, and for some reason, they probably thought that it was fun to kick mine too. i had to turn and stare at them before one of them realised that, "OH. THAT'S A STRANGER. AND MOMMY SAYS NEVER TO KICK A STRANGER'S CHAIR. HOW VERY DEEPLY STUPID I AM."

throughout the whole movie, they were shouting, playing their ringtones out loudly, making fun of their girl friends in front, scolding vulgraities in hokkien and chinese, and oh, the boy behind me was pissed off because those foreign teenagers behind him kept kicking his chair. OH, so YOU can kick my chair, but they cant kick your chair. HMMM. i see.

this KID just kept scolding out loudly in hokkien and chinese (to his friends). "si ang moh" was what he said. DUDE, really, if you really, so dearly, reeeaaally really want to be *sigh*, an "Ah Beng", then act like a real one. tell them off to their faces. which means, inENGLISH. no? cant do it? sorry, i guess you've failed then.

when the lights came on after the movie was over, i realised that a couple of those boys were shorter than me. SHORTER than me. that shows how young they are. because i aint tall. so let me guess. they're probably...primary 6 to sec 2. and yet all that profanities. i can understand that people use them when they're pissed...but when they just want to think that they're, well, "cool"?

why do kids want to be gangsters nowadays? is it the in thing? they REALLY think it'll make them cooler if they yell bad words in public? *laughs* Such losers.

such a turn off.

School 101 Holiday 101

school's out! party time, party people. get your asses off the couch and let's go CLUBBING! WHEEEEEE. that is like oh my god, sooo freakin' awesome. maybe we can even drink more than we usually do! :O like, how cool is that? woot!

rrright. like that's what i'm gonna do. *laughs* me? club? *laughs*

i'm pretty much a free person now, with my final exams done and everything. of course, i still have to wait for the results, which will come in the SMS of Doom like last semester. i'm not kidding. it's scary. i do not wish to take supp papers. i do not wish to take supp papers. i do not wish to take supp papers...

i cant believe Year 1 is over. i DO want to get out of year 1 but, i dont wanna be in Year 2. because it means more work, tougher subjects, more stress, and *grotesquely*, more Java. sorry, i just vomitted a little in my mouth.

although... it does feel good to know that i'm gonna be a student in Year 2! hah.

i'm always contradicting myself. i should be a poet.

so i'll probably take a break or so, or maybe look for a job or something. i don't know. haven't made plans on how to spend my holidays. or maybe i'll just snuggle up under my warm blankie and sit in front of the tv for the next two months. and die of heat stroke. 'least i died in front of the tv.

School 101

my last day of school is over. well, technically.

Next week's study week, which means stay at home and put on ear muffs so that the tv wont talk to me or go to the school library to actually get some work done. i don't know. it's a tough decision to make.

anyway, the following week will be my final examinations week. 3 papers, in 2 days. 3 papers...in 2 days. i know that's good. i also happen to know that's bad. Good because i'll finish my exams earlier, but BOO. that means lesser time to study.

my BNT(Basic Networking Technologies) paper happens to be 3 hours long. 3 WHOLE HOURS! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO FOR 3 HOURS?! here's the thing. i predict i'll finish the paper in an hour or so- because i won't know how to do alot of the questions- and then i'll sit there on my chair, stare at the paper, pray that the answers to questions B2, B4, C1, C2, C3 and more will enter my brains and at the same time, try my hardest to resist the temptations of falling asleep.

resist.

i cant wait for the 21st of Feb. After my maths paper, i'm officially done with SCHOOL. okay Year 1...unless i have to take a sub paper (which i'm extremely afraid will happen) or maybe somehow, i just wont seem to be able to pass Year 1. that will be a different story.

okay, i shall have no bad thoughts for now. maybe i'll get my eyes off the tv and computer and start some studying now. alright. but not before i gorge on some lovely Cadbury chocolates first.

Bon Voyage

this morning was precious.

one of my dearest friends was leaving for Australia so we went to the airport to send her off. i overslept. i can't believe i did that. i was always foolishly early and yet at such an important day, i actually overslept. thankfully, i still got there in time to get ready to send her off(thanks to mom!).

7 years. that's long. that's really long. cos in 7 years we'll all be 25. we'll be real adults. it'll be the primetime of our lives. some of us might even be married. who knows? but at least she's gonna be able to do what she likes. that's good.

i'm gonna miss her, but 's ok...cos i'll visit her in 4 years! it's a pact my friends and i made. i really look forward to that day. i do hope the pact's still on by then though.

on to Chinese New Year. my family went to Johor on the 1st night. you know, to kind of escape Singapore. to take a break. to just get out of the country for a day. and believe me, it was worth it. sure, we stayed in a screwed up hotel but it still felt good to be away from all that stressful environment for a while. a night.
i've never seen my mom enjoy herself that much in a while. Black Jack. the key to happiness. hah.

there was karaoke-ing on the 2nd night. i'm just gonna leave out the details on that. mmhmm.

so okay. recently, i've been on the computer till mornings like 2am to do my projects. thus it gave me the opportunity to be crazy and talk stupid. well, i did. ask my friend. late night conversations-they're stupid... and so very entertaining. heh.

i met my future cousin-in-law today. he had a very strong english accent. WELL, he is technically "English". *gasp* i never thought i'd get the chance to say that. awesome. my cousin looked really happy. she didnt have to say it, but i'm sure everyone could see that she was glowing. sh-weet. that means another wedding coming up.

i love attending weddings. have i ever mentioned that? i love weddings. :)

i've completed a few stuffs but feels like i've still got plenty to do. French speaking test. ugh. BNT Lab Test. argh. Java project. *pukes* oh.i DO have plenty more to do...

author's note: did i mention that i left my java lab exercises and the project worksheet in the free access lab i used on Saturday? i.am.a.freaking.absent.minded.hobbit. i hope it's still there tomorrow. Would anyone like to use my brains for some scientific experiment?

Gong Xi Gong Xi

hectic schedule. craaazy work. unfinished junk. stressed up brain. drained thoughts. hyperventilation. nervous breakdown.

my therapy? My Chemical Romance's [Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge].
What you should do, is blast it on your radio 3-5 nights in a row. sometimes it really works.

chinese new year is here. my best therapy...for now. it's finally here. i'm finally getting a break from all these "k-fed"(<-my other word that means "stupid") work i have to do! i know i'll have to get back to them, or as a matter of fact, get ready to present them, once school reopens on Wed. but i'm not gonna freakin care for now. i need a break, and i'm gonna use it well.

well, until tuesday of course and then it's back to reality, girlfriend.

reunion dinner tonight.
happy chinese new year everyone. Gong Xi Fa Cai.

New Day

i finally found time to blog. i've still got so many projects to complete, although most of them are at least 1/4 done..finally. phew....like i'm ever going to be able to finish them.

the past 5 days or so felt like 5 years. the funeral and everything.. it was so hectic and crazy, i felt as though it would never end. but it's all over now. it's ended. i think i learnt alot from the funeral. alot about my family, alot about my grandfather, alot about chinese customs. those traditions. hmm.

i think my mother's back to normal. i'm pretty sure she can't be that normal yet but she's definitely better. and turns out my family is gonna celebrate chinese new year after all. i better step up and get everything done then! *nods*

my only question is...where? hm.

so we bought lots of stuffs for the chinese new year today. loads and loads of them. bags and bags of them. we got our pussy willow.

in the evening, we received news that my grandpa had passed away. 96 years of age.

death for him is just another journey to another place. a happier place maybe. no more suffering in pain. i'm happy for him.

she's... back.

i think the wet weather's gone for good. or at least for now. the rain was such a pain and a gain. i didnt like having to shelter myself from the rain every morning for the past 2 weeks. but i loved the cool temperature. if only Singapore was this cool everyday. if only.

but hey, with Mother Nature playing her tricks on the world right now, Singapore might just snow one day. just one fine day. i wonder if that's a good or a bad thing.

anyway, i'm starting to feel the pressure lately because i've got loads of projects on hand and a few of them have to be completed before the Chinese New Year. lab tests coming up and oh, a math test on the eve of the eve of cny.

yay. boy, that's what i need to get me in the mood. *snaps fingers and does a thumb-up*

i can't wait for chinese new year. i really cant. nobody around me seems to be getting in the mood. i know, the pre-festive-season spirit in me is here... again (everybody go, "SIGH."). just like christmas.

okay now my friends are gonna start to avoid me. hmm.

SO as i was saying, chinese new year is coming. made LOADS of pineapple tarts at my aunt's house the other day. enough to set up a stall for a day i think. really. i guess it was pretty fun to learn how to make goodies like these(especially if you're doing it with 5 other ladies around. kinda like..ladies day! or um, grandma's knitting class.)..until you're doing the 4,789,346,203th tart. then it got pretty tiring. who knew that one could end up suffering from a sore back and tired feet..just from making the innocent little pineapple tarts?

so it really is my duty to eat them up during new year, for making me do all that hard work. oh, the sacrifice.

*sniggers*

gonna go to chinatown tomorrow. hopefully we'll find a pussy willow. hey if i can't get a christmas tree, at least let me enjoy my pussy willow okay?

ps: i still don't think they should keep playing new year songs everywhere. they get..annoying.

A New Year

it's been a very slow week, probably because i'm still in the whole holiday mood. some things we did, i liked. some, i didnt.

we got back 3 out of 4 of our exam papers.2 of them, i thought i did pretty ok. but as predicted, i failed my java. and badly too. i'm really starting to wonder what i'm going to do when i graduate and start working in the society. where is my place going to be if i'm failing my main module this badly? i wouldn't have a teacher or a friend there to help me, so i'll probably get fired.

then where do i go? i don't know. and i'm 17 already. and if you count by the year, i'm 18. dammit. i have no idea where i'm going. the freak out begins.


Dr William Tan tried to set a new Guiness World record on Thursday by wheeling himself around my school track for 24 hrs. we had to participate as well by running around the tracks. me, being the lousy runner i am, ran a pathetic number of 3 rounds. i was panting like a tired old horse after 2 rounds. pa-the-tic.

but i guess i did feel pretty good after the run. i thought i would've dreaded it, but i ended up feeling good. i wouldn't say i'm proud of myself(god, did u see? i was pathetic!) but i'm glad i ran. because to be honest, after being hyped up earlier that evening, i felt a little sick in my stomach and i almost considered going home. shame on me.

thankfully, i didnt. if a parapelgic person could go on, i should. i did.(still not proud of the fact that i ran 3 pathetic rounds though) heh. i do have a different perspective on certain things in life now. i must admit, he's a pretty admirable man. he never gave up. we shouldn't too.

oh yeah, i was freaking out a moment ago?

still am.

alright, now i'm contradicting myself.

(oh and people, keep the parks clean! :) )

Auld Lang Syne

ah,31st december. as suggested by anna, i shall blog about my year. my 2005.

i don't remember much. so here goes...

2005 Highlights:

release of the 'o' level results
the month before i was nervous. the week before i was sick in the stomach. the night before, i was breaking out cold sweat. that morning, i was out walking around TM with my friends before we went to school, as though nothing was going on.
it wasn't as bad as i had expected. i only knew i was happy because i knew i was able to enter poly. PHEW.

Simple Plan- Still Not Getting Any concert (30th of March)
my first real-time concert. Suntec Hall 601. the day started out bad, but once they came out to perform it got better and better. it ended up well..only that i ended up having muffled ears for about nearly a week. i vowed never to attend another concert for the rest of the year. Tomorrow is a new year.

survived my first week in poly (24th of May)
i actually managed to do so without getting myself into any trouble. i was lucky i got into a class where everyone just kind of became friends within 2 days. awesome.


stepped out of the country twice.
2 day trips to Malaysia. hey, it's better than nothing.

JAVA.
bah, i hate it.

dyed my hair.
didnt really work the first time. or the second. or the third. or...
i.have.stubborn.hair.

nail-polish craze
i don't know what got into me, but i got into a nail-polish craze this year. and what better to begin than owning my very first black nail-polish. then many others came along. la dee dum. my nails are brown now by the way.

Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire
it finally came out. i didn't think that it was as good as the 3rd one though. but woohoo i caught it.

diarrhoeas.
never had any for such a long time but this year just seems to be my d-year. either i'm being punished for something, or i just kept eating the wrong food. either way, PLEASE LET 2006 BE DIARRHOEA FREE.

Holiday On Ice- Hollywood (9th of Dec)
what can i say? good looking people in skates. anyone would love to watch that. :)

my birthday
believe it or not, but this is the first time in 17 years that i've actually had friends celebrate my birthday for me. because i always tell them not to, since i'm not really the celebrating type. but i really appreciate my friends for doing it. i had a great time.

there you have it. like i said, i don't remember much.:)

my TOP 10 songs of the year:

1) Fix You- Coldplay (i love this to pieces)
2) Helena- My Chemical Romance
3) Wake Me Up When September Ends- Greenday
4) Home Sweet Home- Motley Crue & Chester Bennington
5) Don Cha- Pussycat Dolls
6) Do You Want To- Franz Ferdinand
7) Lose Control- Missy Elliot feat. Ciara & Fatman Scoop
8) I Don't Wanna Be- Gavin Degraw
9) Welcome To My Life- Simple Plan
10) (maaan i can't believe i'm saying this) Hung Up- Madonna

(Kill- Jimmy Eat World nearly made it to the list!)

happy new year, all.

Pretty

tell me guys, how sweet is it when your friends celebrate your birthday for you, even when you told them there wasn't a need to?

let me tell you. *opens both arms out wide* thiiiissss sweet.



i was a little tired, but i had an awesome time last night. awesome. although i must add that it was a little awkward for me because i've never really wanted to be the center of attention at any point (heh). that kind of explains why i was shushing everyone when they started singing"Happy Birthday". no, they were sweet. i'm the weird one. awesome bunch of people.

my friends...everyone of them...awesome.

For My 17th Birthday...

i turn 17 today.

when i laid on my bed last night, i thought about a lot of things. about the things in my life to be thankful for. the things that some people will not have in their lives ever again.

i am talking about the victims of the Tsunami 26/12/04.

i counted down to Christmas at Anna's place. we carolled. we watched "A Blessed Christmas". we ate. we wore our "I Believe In Santa Claus" santa hats. we "boggled". we whacked each other with the MTV Asia 2004 premium thingies. we were nuts, but i had fun.

then i got home, and i caught the Tsunami special on CNA. they were showing real life video footages of the people who survived and were taking the videos as the tsunami struck. it suddenly didn't feel so right to be happy anymore.

i watched this couple get washed away as they tried grabbing someone's hand to be pulled up to safety. this family was pinning themselves against their house as the waves rised. 2 children got swept away. it's like a movie, where you see the characters get washed away, but you know they'll still be there in real life. only that wasn't a movie, it was real. they weren't coming back.

my bro thought that we shouldnt watch something so depressing on Christmas. we were playing Scrabble. the four of us.

i'm thankful for all that i have. i really am now. sure, i dont get parties and presents like cars like the kids on My Super Sweet Sixteen for my birthday. but the victims of the disaster have no homes, and i have a comfortable one. they have lost their loved ones, and i have them right next to me. i even get a cake. i wish there's something i can do for them. anything. maybe offer a hug. anything.

for my 17th birthday, i shall be thankful for everything i have...

Happy Thoughts

finally, the exams are over. i am 150% sure that my java paper is screwed really badly. i dont even know how to describe it.

anyway, tis the season to be jolly...

tomorrow's the long-awaited day...Christmas Eve! i shall erase the unpleasant, traumatic experience of doing my exam papers for now and be happy. and of course, it's also the beginning of my holidays! sure it's just 8 days, but it's the beginning of my holidays! awesome.

we need santa hats, damn it.

oops, i said happy.

i have to go back to school for 6 whole hours next tuesday. BUMMER.

happy thoughts, happy thoughts!

I will talk, and Hollywood will listen.

Bad case of diarrhoea on thursday night and yesterday. i have no idea why because everything i ate the day before, someone else ate the same thing. whatever it was, it wasn't very nice. try having to go to the toilet like, 6 times... in between your precious sleep. it didn't help that i was gonna have two tests the next day. definitely didn't help at all. it undesirably sucked.

which also reminds me: i think i screwed up my BNT paper. hoorah.

but after a visit to the doctor's, a half-hour sleep and some medicine in the afternoon, i felt alot better by evening. and after an afternoon of consideration, i thought i felt alright enough to go to the show, "Holiday On Ice-Hollywood" at the expo with the complimentary ticket i got.

only when i got there did i realise that the ticket i was holding on to was worth $98, which was the most expensively priced one. we were sitting *inhales* right smack in center of the last row of the front-sector*exhales*(so close to the rink) where the view(minus the man sitting in front of me) was absolutely perfect. i'm glad i didn't waste the ticket.

Hollywood was worth every of my post-diarrhoea-resting time. the show was, how should i say it... spectacular. i dont care if some people thought it was retarded(*whistles at anna*). it was absolutely lovely.

an entire large group of good-looking skaters dancing to the different tunes from films made in Hollywood, and also doing some little acting from some movies, stunts included. they skated to tunes from Titanic, Dirty Dancing, Fame, Footloose(which i loved)..just to name a few. their moves were sooo beautiful, i just wanted to go up there and justtwirl...and twirl...and twirl... ok, i'm sorry. so as i was saying, they had gorgeous skating moves , props and costumes. everything was so pretty. sure, there were a couple of times that some of them fell while doing that spinning in the air move, but did you think anyone mind? of course not.

one of the most exciting moments would have to be the part of the movie 007, where "James Bond" jumped across 2 fire hoops on skates. there was a little magic going on as well, the part where they locked him up in a wooden box and he came out from the audience section in a different suit. ah, James Bond indeed. *raises eyebrow* Charming man, he is. The same guy who played the baddie in the Charlie Chaplin segment. the same guy who jumped over 5 or 6 people kneeling next to each other, on skates. kinda like one of those charity shows on tv, except this was much cooler.

my favourite part would have to be the Moulin Rouge bit. Gorgeous skaters, gorgeous settings, gorgeous moves. the best part was when the entire group did the "can-can" to Fatboy Slim's "Because We Can" tune. the moves were so well coordinated. the line was so straight. the costumes were so striking. i wanna do the "can-can" too.

the best skater had this mega-watt smile. he Never.Stopped.Smiling. and his teeth were so white, they should stop endorsing Sylvester Sim. c'mon, let this man do what he should really be doing- toothpaste or teeth whitening commercials. oh that perfect smile. he was undoubtedly the best skater though.

of course, not forgetting these 2 characters who made everything funny. they were these 2 guys who were "auditioning" time and time again just to be able to act in hollywood. one was big and tall, and the other was strong but small. they would appear in between segments and do funny moves for the "director", who kept saying "NO" until the final part where he finally said "ALRIGHT!". aww.. they finally signed the contract. everyone in the audience started cheering. it's like we watched them change from nothing to something.

it was a fresh experience.

oh did i mention that we saw the Team Singapore Gymnasts who got gold in the Sea Games too? yeah we did. Lee Wen Si was really pretty. ok that was kinda random.

anyway, because of this show, zhen and i couldnt find a right time to meet. i feel so guilty about that. sorry zhen(if you ever read this), i only knew this at last minute! i promise i WILL find a day to meet you soon. but i think i got my just deserts. diarrhoea.

*yawns*

i was pretty tired at school today. didn't really sleep much last night due to the extremely humid temperature my room was experiencing. i'd fall asleep for about 10 mins and then wake up suddenly again. i was checking the alarm clock every single hour and counting down to how many more hours of sleep i had to the time to wake up for school-6.30am. 6hrs...5hrs...4hrs...3hrs...2hrs...1hr. my alarm clock rang. Mom opened the door. she woke me up as usual. not that i had actually fallen asleep.

and yes, it rained this morning. heavily, in fact. even when i stepped out of the house. Mom was snuggled up warmly under her blanket on the couch like all rainy days, reminding me to bring along my sweater to school. not this morning. this morning, i needed no sweater. all i felt was humidity. so warm i think i was almost grouchy. ---i'm starting to think the tea i drank last night(at the airport with my family) might be a suspect as well.---

the 17 yr old air-condition in my room needs some fixing.

managed to catch the movie "Pretty Woman" at the school library today during break. my 4th time watching it, i should think. hey, at least it relaxed my mind for a while. and it is Richard Gere. :)

tests are coming.

tired.