Sunday, March 11, 2007

chirp chirp.

remember this?
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well,

TAAA-DAAAA.

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so pretty.

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Prison Break

technology's rapidly advancing. rapidly. i wish we could slow down the pace a little, but unfortunately, there is always someone tech-savvy out there coming up with new ways to improve something. thus... my project.

i also happen to think that it's really comforting to know that the previous four batches have been working on it for 2 years and we're the last group to finish it up, for good. which basically means, compiling everything together. which also basically means, we're done for.

ok. so when you have to spend an entire 7 hours a day in the same lab, staring at the same computer screen, 5 days a week, you'll barely want to touch your computer when you return home. trust me, that's what i've been doing.

what's worse? we're being watched all over, openly and secretly. all that's missing in the picture is a burly guard carrying a baton.

6 months. i might end up with a soft cervical collar on my neck, a shaved head like britney, and glasses with 700 degrees on each lens. wait, let's also include paranoia. and it hasnt even officially begun yet.

what i'm hoping is that we will, at the very least, get A CLUE of what to do by the end of this month. an idea of where to start.
rrriiight.

i must really commend myself right now. what a brave thing i'm doing here, actually using my computer at this time.

oh yeah, there's just one more thing i have to mention. papayas. that's right. one of my favourite fruits has been giving me sharp acute pains in my stomach on 2 alternative nights. i wonder if it's just THAT particular papaya(which my mom had and she was fine), or if it's really the stress. i dont know which it is, but i should probably stay away from papayas for a while. this pain is driving me crazy.

bail me out, somebody!

Sunday, March 4, 2007

just a lil' bit of hope

3.40 pm.
i was surfing the internet and was alone at home. the phone rang.

me: hello?
mom: hello.
me: yup?
mom: hey, make sure that the stove isnt on. and the oven, all that, make sure that the gas isnt on. better be careful...
me: wow, you left home at 1.30, and you call me only 2 hours later to make sure that the gas isnt on? so actually, if the gas was on, i would've died 2 hours ago.
mom: i forgot. heh.

4.50 pm.
i was in my room, still surfing the internet. the door opened. i heard my mom walk in.with a high-pitched, soprano-liked voice, she "sang".

mom(in a melody): swee hoon... sweeee hooooon... we're baaaack. sweeeee hoooon... sweee hooon.. we're baaack. sweeee...
me: are you high on drugs?

lol. i know. sorry. i just thought my mom was really cute so i had to blog about it.

also, i received my belated, belated birthday gift from jean yesterday.
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this is what it says at the side:

"Pimples are part of the cycle of life and there's only one way to stop the cruel mocking that accompanies them. Take a swig from this pill bottle and spit a mouth full of these candy pills at the person making fun of your pimples. You will finally have the last laugh.

Warning: If the person you spit the pills at is bigger than you, run away quickly and don't look back."


are you kidding me, girl? i love it. :)

in the meantime, i'm still trying to believe, with the littlest hope in my heart, that the SIP thing tomorrow would just be a one-day thing and that we wont have to return to school until a month later, at the very least.

let me console convince myself, will you?

Saturday, March 3, 2007

Grace Kelly

ok, i cant post videos from youtube onto my blog anymore because i've got a different username and it's too long and i cant change it and blah blah blah. so i can only put up a link.

check this out.
and he's good live too!

I tried to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I tried a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

i dont think it's as Queen as people have said it is. ok, maybe a little bit. but it doesnt matter.
adore!

Friday, March 2, 2007

it was a typical friday afternoon...

i entered the train at city hall and stood at the area connecting the cabins together. this friendly looking elderly man came in and walked straight to the 2-seater area.

old man: excuse me. *points to sign above that says, "Please offer this seat to someone who needs it more than you do"* let me sit.

one lady stood up and gave him her seat. he gestured for the other lady to move as well. she stood up, and he put his bags and stuffs on the other seat. it was the first time i've actually seen an elderly person do that so i was quite amused. how cute.

bugis. this lady and her little grandson boarded. the adorable little boy ran around the cabin(stepped on my toes while at it) and talked to his grandma about umbrellas or something. the old man smiled at him as the boy noticed the umbrella on his hand. the grandmother smiled and told the boy to call him "ah pek".

but what began as a polite gesture turned sour. you see, for some apparent reason, the old man got offended when that lady had called him an "ah pek". and then this scene began.

*in hokkien*
old man: what "ah pek"? what "ah pek"?
lady(grandma): *confused* huh? no i was telling him that he should call you "ah pek"..
old man: what "ah pek"? so rude! how can you anyhow call me that? huh? HUH? in taiwan, little boys call old men "ye ye", or "ah gong".. why must you call me "ah pek"? HUH?

of course, by then, that had attracted the attention of the entire cabin.

lady: what? was i wrong to ask him to call you an "ah pek"? was i wrong to be polite?
old man: "ah pek"?! you cant call me ah pek! why dont call me "ah gong"? in taiwan, blab blab blab blab yak yak yak yak(of course that wasnt what he said but that was what it sounded like to me after 5 minutes of his ranting)...
lady: crazy! *brings her grandson to stand at the other exit* *speaking to the rest of the people in the cabin* was i wrong to call him an "ah pek"? i was being polite, wasnt i? why cant i call him "ah pek"?
old man(shouting at her): blab blab blab blab "ah pek", yak yak yak yak "ah gong", blah blah blah blah blaaaaah

by then, people from the other cabins were all looking in, wondering what the whole ruckus was. after another 3 minutes, the old man was still at it while the lady couldnt wait to get off the train.

this refined looking caucasian guy stood up and walked to the old man.

caucasian: here. take a dollar and shut up.
old man(in english): what? you go away! i dont want your dollar. go! not your problem, why you come? huh? you think i dont know english ah? go away ah. she call me "ah pek"(here we go again) blah blah blah... what your problem?

the guy walked back to his seat, absolutely annoyed, while the old man continued his ranting out loud, this time, at the caucasian too. the thing was, he continued the "ah pek" complain even after the lady got off the train with her grandson.

random student: shut up.
old man: *looks out* what? who called me to shut up ah? who? you got problem ah? you rude ah! what shut up?
random man 1: the whole train wants you to shut up.
old man: what whole train? not happy ah? call the captain come lah! call lah!
random man 2: ok, hey, boy boy? boy boy? keep quiet, ok?
old man: you keep quiet ah! (and yet another 10 minutes of constant ranting)

the indian tourist(with 2 huge luggages) sitting opposite him tried avoiding eye contact.

5 minutes later...
old man(to tourist): you know what i argue about just now? that woman ah, call me "ah pek". you know in taiwan, jdgaklifgoqaivunak fjasdfkbaiuefhgla adjhfalsdkhjfsaM...
old man: and then, that one*looks at the caucasian*, want to give me money. for what? i dont want your money. those europeans ah, fair skin, huh, all that high education..for what? think i dont know how to speak english ah? i can speak english a bit you know!

by then, the caucasian guy could not be bothered anymore. the old clown finally got off at tampines. hah. "CUTE". i take that back. some people on the train were annoyed, some were amused, and some were so annoyed that they were amused.

me? i spent the entire time with my head lowered, cap pulled down to cover most of my face, while i, you know, laughed my ass off. what a torture, to have to laugh alone. oh yes, i also happened to be soaked like a peking duck.

just like i said, it was a typical friday afternoon...

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

FREEEEEE as a doughnut

i am freeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

ah. the sweet smell of freedom.

yes, i took my final paper today and i am, your royal highnesses, officially... on holiday! *runs around like a whacked job* okay, i should probably start packing right now for my backpacking trip across Europe! that's right. paris! roma! italia! madrid! Qui sono venuto! and i should start looking up newspaper ads for job vacancies. and of course, i'm going to learn driving. yesssss. this is all working just fine. all too good. too good...

...to be true.

IF ONLY there was a way for me to squeeze all that into my 4-day holiday. that's right. SIP unofficially begins on the 5th of march a.ka. next monday a.k.a. the first day of the week that makes us all depressed.

time flies by real quickly. 4 days? i think that's pretty much equivalent to 2. maybe if i go to bed right now, tomorrow will be sunday. hmm. there're things that i've planned to do in my "upcoming-now-defunct-holiday" since 1 month ago, but i guess they're not really possible now. and my good friend's leaving for china(for 2 months!) this saturday. what's more, i should probably start studying for my supp paper for Itech(at the very least).

mmmm. dont you just love the sweet smell of freedom?

maybe, JUST maybe, i should stay at home, and try and figure out what kind of mutant i really am? i'm sure i have superpowers. come on. i know i got it. i just have to figure out what is it.

and i have 4 days for that. :)

Sunday, February 25, 2007

a series of unfortunate events: event #413213

something has happened. again.

there's no escaping it, is there? something always has to happen during the chinese new year period. it's not even day 15 yet.

drama. there's too much of it. they dont necessarily happen to me, but they happen to people around me, which indirectly affects me as well. i'm watching someone play a joke on these people. it feels like it.

i'm 18 and i'm a singaporean. my life is supposed to be simple and boring. it is. but not to the people around me, it seems.

there is a way of not getting involved. i cant be anyway. i wouldnt be able to do much at all. but it's definitely going to affect us in a way. i see more and more worry lines popping out as the hour passes. as much as she tries not to think about it. multiply that with 6.

maybe everyone should just lock themselves in at home for a month. an entire month without stepping out of the house. would that prevent catastrophies?

a lesson to be learnt. too late, perhaps.
no more drama. please.

Friday, February 23, 2007

1 down, 2 to go.

this lunar new year has officially bored me.
and coming from me, that's bad. tsk.

76 relatives (excluding distant ones), and my chinese new year was about as exciting as peeling the skin off 100 potatoes on a lazy summer's day. tsk, tsk.

YES, i had my 1st paper today. i wouldnt dare say much about it, just in case i jinx it, but i think it should be passable. at least, i hope. i think. my worst nightmare has yet to arrive. that's right. doomsday on wednesday.

2 whole hours of pure torture. it'll slice my head open, take out my brains, and then mutilate my body until it becomes unrecognisable. i am not talking about "Heroes." it's just that little darn thing called Wireless.

i just hope i'll be able to survive to tell the tale. or you know, blog about it.

i caught this.
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i'll rate it 2/5.
Power Rangers would have gotten 2.5.

it was that bad of a movie. and you know coming from me, that IS a bad thing. i expected better. way better. i mean, for starters, movies based on comic book heroes are usually good, really good, or at the very least, acceptable. and this is, afterall, a Nicolas Cage movie.

only, it was nowhere near what i had expected. what a waste of money.
tsk, tsk, tsk.

now this,
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should be much better.

yes.

i cant wait for Ugly Betty. i'm hoping it's gonna be good, judging on the number of awards it has won over time. plus America Ferrera stars in it.
i loved her here...
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so i'm pretty sure i'll like her in Ugly Betty too. yay.

but i know.
exams first. every other sane thing, second.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Time to Pig out

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

it's finally here. some kind of zest is still missing this year.
it's okay. maybe we'll find it soon.

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SNORT.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

it is here.

yes. finally. after all that waiting. it has been so long.

too long.

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finally.

burp.

Friday, February 16, 2007

the good, the bad and the evil

i have never celebrated valentine's day, so typically, it was just another day to me. a busy wednesday. here's a recount of what happened.

the good:

got yummer-licious rochers and a disc(thanks marc), some random rose(thanks ahli), a straw heart(um, student union) and chocolates and a lollipop(my telepathic one). even though i wasnt much of a valentine's day person, i gave out some chocolates(and "diet pills") as well. hey, no one should miss out on good chocolates. c'mon. it's chocolates (and special "diet pills"). i appreciated all the gifts. thanks, peeps, and my telepathic one. and yes! i finally handed in my moodboard and fashion illustrations! i must be dreaming.

the bad:

i was bloody sick(still am). so i couldnt feast on those yummer-licious chocolates(what a catastrophe), and i definitely couldnt smell the roses with that blocked nose(that's if, roses have smells. they do.. right? i dont know, i'm not much of a flower person.). blah. plus, i had to worry about some stupid project(which i finally handed up today). and i havent started on my revision for the exams. hoohaaa.

the evil:

i learnt yesterday that my SIP unofficially begins on the 5th of March. wait, sorry? 5 days after my last paper? oh, so, that means no holidays? that whole 2 month break(where i was going to look for a job, learn driving and actually breathe) that i was really looking forward to's...not gonna happen? really? wow thanks! that news totally made my day.

at this point, i should probably start mutating.

alright. chinese new year in 2 more days. finally.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

cough. sneeze.

falling sick right before chinese new year is like growing a pimple right before prom.

only, i dont do proms so i cant afford to fall sick before chinese new year. except, i did.

what a bummer.

i HAVE TO BINGE on new year goodies when cny officially comes. i planned to.
i guess it's time i used my mutant powers to make myself well by friday.

onto the Grammy's.
James Blunt's performance was painful. seriously.
what? i'm not ready to make nice.
that's all i have to say, really.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

chirp.

look what we found on the air-con compressor outside my parents' room window?

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i cant wait chinese new year.

Thursday, February 8, 2007

thoughts exploded into pieces.

dear mr.
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will you please break me out of this prison?
bus 8, 69 or 23 should do the trick.

please?

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yeah, that's right. think about it, hard.



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come on, there's no need to discuss it with Lincoln.



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tsk. break me out, this instant!

Monday, February 5, 2007

V for Victory

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ROOAAARRR.

REPRESENT!

Saturday, February 3, 2007

COOK ISLANDS

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i love you but...




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HELL YEAH!

REPRESENT!




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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

the big screen

New on the BIG SCREEN this January,


Warner Bros. brings you...



"Singapore VS Thailand"




"2 thumbs up!" - Jackson, I'llLaughAtYou Times


"Brilliant actors!"- ImBull Magazine


"One of the funniest comedies i've watched all January!" - youreajoke.com



NOW SHOWING

At a Cinema Near You.


p.s.: i'm going to Tristan Prettyman's gig! it's as simple as it should be!

Monday, January 29, 2007

to-mah-to, to-may-to. po-tay-to, po-tah-to. mourn-ing, moan-ing. what's the difference anyway?

so we went to my brother's university to help clear out his dorm yesterday. as my brother was parking the car, mom spotted this girl with a hamster and talked about how people brought stuffs to keep them company in the dorm.

and then this conversation began.

bro: once i even heard a girl moaning.
dad: huh? mourning?
bro: moaning.
dad: mourning? why? someone passed away?
bro: no, not mourning. moaning.

*pauses*

dad: oh.

*awkward silence in the car*

me: -bursts out laughing-
me: i gotta tell my friends about this!
mom shoots me an embarrased smile.

ah. the good ol' birds and the bees.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Fog you.

i'd like to sincerely thank the town council for sending people to do fogging at the rubbish chute areas around here because it really killed all the little cockroaches breeding at those areas. i walked in a land of dead cockroaches on my way to school a few weeks back. literally. everywhere around me laid big and baby cockroaches. most dead, some struggling to move.

in fact, i had to watch where i was stepping so that i wouldnt get cockroach juice on the soles of my shoes(ironically, i JUST(literally) received an email that has something to do with a cockroach just as i was typing. QUEER!). i was quite amused by the situation, really. i'm pretty sure hundreds of cockroach souls were flying around me.

so anyway, it's cool that their fogging. but the fogging's led to an overpower of MOSQUITOES! those damn 6-legged stingers have bitten me all over. UMPTEEN TIMES in 1 week.

i have a mission.

to kill those little buggers.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

if my brain has feet, it'd be running in circles.

give me strength, give me strength,

give me strength!

give me the strength and power i need to make the right decisions. give me the strength to carry on and perservere. give me the strength.

i want the strength!

on second thought, forget all of the above. just give me the brains.

and it's official. i'm pretty sure my teacher hates me. sorry, what? oh hate's too strong of a word? yeah, maybe you're right. well then, i'm pretty sure my teacher detests me.*jumps for joy* awwww.

it doesnt matter.
because i am a mutant.
and i have superpowers.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

i feel the love.

politics. conspiracies. schemes. lies.

you would think that at their age these would all take too much effort. guess not. looks like there still is that little bit of strength there to create all of the above.

people, people, people.
tsk, tsk.

didnt mommy teach you to grow up and be good people?
you know you cant hide that tail of yours in your pants forever, now can you? oh wait now. i think mommy did.

you know, someone removed the target board. now your arrow's stuck on the tree trunk and you cant pull it out. i'm sorry but it's becoming to look like a joke. a real joke. and the joke's on you, my friend. i am only human to laugh. hahaha.

these would make good stand-up-comedy materials.

Disclaimer: *this entry doesnt have to make any sense to you at all.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

i am so happy i could eat a horse.

the program didnt work. it didnt display even though everything else seemed okay. 15%. 15 marks out of the final 100. gone down the amazon river. and i threw it down.
that's advanced mobcomp for me.

also, i realised today that a laptop is quite essential for me for my SIP and major project. that means extra expense of $1000++. that also means no driving lessons.

20 minutes ago, my mp3 died on me. completely died. no letter of warning, no last minute notice, no goodbye, nothing. not even a "hi, i'm about to die on you in 2 seconds." zilch. i couldnt even resuscitate it. you would think that looking for the warranty card and calling up the shop would be a good idea. got the warranty card alright. the shop? it's gone. it doesnt exist on the phase of this earth anymore.
that's my brandless mp3 for you.

i'm actually not flaring up right now. surprise. now usually, i would. but right now, i dont even feel the need to. only because,

honestly,

PEOPLE,

members of the public,

your majesty,

could the day get any worse?

i would be completely pissed off with myself. i could drink to get high but i dont drink. besides, i think i'll only wake up with a throbbing headache the next morning because i cant drink. i could yell at myself or walk away from myself. unfortunately, that would either classify me as mentally disturbed, or dead.

today is a great day. [insert profanity here]

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole.
I thank whatever gods may be,
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have not winced or cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance,
My head is bloody but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears,
Looms but the horror of the shade.
And yet the menace of the years,
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments is the scroll.
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.


-William Ernest Henley

Monday, January 15, 2007

unstable grounds

reality. i am this afraid of it. and by this, i meant,

thiiiiisss.


that much.

i dont live in a world with unexplainable fantasies, but i avoid reality just the same. maybe in a different way. i dont think about what's ahead of me, even though everyday that passes by means it's one step closer to what's about to happen.

i hate the thought of that. i hate it. if i keep thinking about what's ahead of me in my future, i'll be 80 in a few days time.

i was never always like that. i wasnt one to embrace and welcome my future with open arms but i sure wasnt one to escape from it. THEN. now? i try to run away from it like a chick from an eagle. scurrying, with my tiny two feet, trying my hardest to outrun the soaring eagle. the big eagle. with spreaded wings.
momma?

i know the problem. i see the problem. it's not teenage hormones. it's not the fear of heading out. it's just knowing that what lies ahead is the result of a choice that i made. one that wasnt so wise.

THAT's what i'm running from. that. i live everyday now with one concept. tomorrow's problems, shall be dealt with tomorrow. how unhealthy. how unsteady. but i cant deal with it. because my hair falls out everytime i start thinking about it at night. it's not an illness. i just yank my hair out, that's all.

i try to look ahead, for something bright, something happy, something to look forward to in the far future to keep me encouraged. c'mon. it's only months.

reality check.
to get there, i'll have to go through all those things that i'm trying to avoid now(or technically, wish i could magically skip). "live everyday like there's no tomorrow." wish i could. unfortunately, i think that only applies to someone who's 60 and retired.

which is why i shall erase my mind off sh*t right now by tuning in to Scrubs on tv. wow. how brave and appropriate.

yeah, run. run away when there're problems ahead of you. be a coward. that's what you parents taught you, isnt it? loser.

look no further.
the eagle has landed caught it's chick.

okay inner voice, shut up.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

slipped away

i didnt get around to kiss you,
goodbye on the hand.
i wish that i could see you again,
i know that i cant.

i hope you can hear me
cos i remember it clearly.

the day you slipped away
was the day i found it wont be the same.

i miss you.


doesnt feel like it, but come tomorrow, it'll be exactly a year since my grandad passed away.

always, and forever. :)

Thursday, January 11, 2007

mmm what d'ya say?

Imogen Heap - Hide & Seek (live at Studio 11, Indie 103.1FM)

walk into your room, shut the door behind you, turn off the lights and sit on the floor. now play this song.

i promise you goosebumps.
i've listened to Hide & Seek for about a million times today. another million more times to go.

Imogen Heap - Just For Now (live at Studio 11 103.1FM)

oh blimey. i love her stuff.
i'm hooked.

Monday, January 8, 2007

song meme

meme time. i said i would do it.

here goes.

five songs that remind you of being a small child:

* back for good=> take that
used to sing that alot with my brother and cousins. was a fan, for sure.
* eternal love=> pj & duncan
brother owned the cassette which was later passed on to me.
* black or white=> michael jackson
was a huge fan. well, when his nose still functioned.
* wannabe=> spice girls
hey, i'll act out the entire Spice World for you if you want.
* kiss from a rose=> seal
i still have a tape recording of me singing this when i was little. well, i tried.

five songs that remind you of your best friends:

* graduation(friends forever)=> vitamin c
as much as i would love to like this song, i still cant bring myself to do it after it was overplayed at BOTH graduation parties. still, every part of it reminds me of the times we shared.
* polka power=> weird al yankovic
jean and i used to sing this in class all the time. "i'm not sick but i'm not welllll..."
* semi-charmed life=> third-eye blind
we werent exactly listening in class.
* forca=> nelly furtado
world cup.
* nas school song
says it all, doesnt it? that doesnt mean i love it. :)

five songs guaranteed to make you cry:

generally, i dont cry over songs. maybe these 2.
* slipped away=> avril lavigne
* tomorrow=> avril lavigne

i played them both over and over again when my grandad passed away a year ago.

five songs guaranteed to make you smile:

* i dont feel like dancin'=> scissor sisters
i get off my ass and dance everytime this song comes on.
* boston=> augustana
i know, the tune's kinda sad but i adore this song.
* i'll be there for you=> rembrandts
i miss F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
* wouldnt it be nice=> the beach boys
wouldnt it?
* bohemian rhapsody=> queen
all hail the queen.

five songs that never should have been made:

* tokyo drift=> teriyaki boys
* crazy frog=> axel f
* that cockroach song played on tv all the time=> anyoneeveryone
* dont call me baby=> madison avenue
* unchained melody=> the righteous brothers
overplayed, oversung, techno and just, long.
sorry.

five of your favourite love songs:

* more than anyone=> gavin degraw
* you and me=> lifehouse
* all about lovin' you=> bon jovi
* simple as it should be=> tristan prettyman
* ride of your life=> john gregory



five songs you always sing along to:

* fix you=> coldplay
* hear you me=> jimmy eat world
* wake me up when september ends=> greenday
* addicted=> simple plan
* i'll be there for you=> rembrandts


five Current Most Played Songs:

* before i fall to pieces=> razorlight
* just friends=> gavin degraw
* mfeo=> jack's mannequin
* all good things(come to an end)=> nelly furtado
* toxic=> stevie ann


fivetentwelve random songs you think people should listen to:

* before i fall to pieces=> razorlight
* holiday from real=> jack's mannequin
* existentialism on prom night=> straylight run
* god only knows=> the beach boys
* wont back down=> mat kearney
* little=> something corporate
* silence is easy=> starsailor
* karma police=> radiohead
* boss of me=> they might be giants
* i'm movin' on=> rascal flatts
* mother mother=> tracy bonham
* pinball wizard=> the who


meme-d.

if you wanna do this, you're tagged.

Sunday, January 7, 2007

my new year

ok, i said i would do a meme but i'm kinda lazy right now. maybe later.

i just took down all my christmas decorations. i just took down all my christmas decorations. my room feels naked.

guess christmas really is over. shoot.

"gong xi, gong xi". the sound of chinese drums, trumpets, cymbals, with the combination of old chinese singers and a little remix touch makes the perfect dish called chinese new year songs that will soon be played incessantly, everywhere. everywhere.

now it's not that i hate them(well, most of them). but i mean, i guess this would've been much nicer to sing-a-longlisten to. (disclaimer: my neighbour's playing chinese new year songs RIGHT NOW and my dad just told me my mom was the one who asked them to play it.)

dont get me wrong. i'm a festive lover. i love christmas. i love chinese new year. i love the feeling when my family does spring cleaning. i love it when my dad starts putting up new year decos and engages my help for it (even though it's not so much of a christmas wreath or a mistletoe). and when it comes down to decorating the pussy willow, you've stopped at my territory. you see, i havent really gotten any chances with a christmas tree, so the pussy willow's kinda my thang. heh.

maybe i'm just not in the mood yet. maybe i will be in a few weeks.

or maybe knowing the fact that my end-of-year exams are just 2 days after the chinese new year is what's overshadowing my festive spirit.

i still dont like school.

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

happy 2007?

1st january, 2007. i sat on the bed. my friends played cards on the ground. the room was filled with laughter. people were running around outside, taking pictures, playing with fireworks. ships in the far distance sent flares up into the sky to welcome the new year.

the news spread across the tv screen.
"More bombings in thailand after midnight."

if that was the bombers' idea of welcoming 2007, i think they got it all wrong.
when was the last time people actually welcomed the new year without fearing that something might happen at the countdown party? no, strike that. when was the last time people actually celebrated anything without fearing that something might happen? i can hardly remember anymore.

how soon before i start having qualms about living in one of the safest countries in the world? how soon before global warming really gets to us? how soon before i dread going to school? anytime soon.

there is no doubt about it. i am not ready for school.

happy new year?
mama mia. I HOPE.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

(RED)

i watched a really good program on mtv just now. it's called Thinkhiv: This Is Me. it's one of those few meaningful programs on mtv that does not involve dumping faeces on cars and getting wasted.

it's a 1/2 hour documentary with videos filmed by young people either infected with or affected by HIV. young people who were HIV positive talked about how their lives had been affected when their families and friends found out about their illness, or how people who knew would discriminate them. one that i remembered was this girl who was HIV positive, and she was filming her guy friend as they were walking.

*this is how their conversation roughly went*
**the friend does not look at the girl at all**

girl*behind the camera*: hey what do you know about HIV?
guy: i dont know. *bounces basketball*
girl: come on. what do you know about HIV?
guy: i dont know. that it's bad? *continues bouncing ball*

girl: why is it bad? who told you that it's bad?
guy: my high school told me that it's bad. why are you doing this anyway?
girl: i'm filming some documentary for..something. so it's bad? what would you do if you knew someone who's HIV positive? what would you do if i told you i was HIV positive?
guy: *bounces ball* i dont know..

girl: well i'm telling you now. i'm HIV positive.
guy: *bounces ball* (does not look at the friend at all)
girl: do you still wanna be my friend?
guy: *bounces ball* i dont know, yeah, maybe, i dont know, but i know i'm not going out with you.
girl: well i'm not going out with you either because you're not my type.

snap that, sista.

hi. you dont get HIV just by touching someone who's positive. you dont even get HIV by kissing that person. you only get it if you have sex with that person. so why the discrimination? fortunately, there were a few of them who had supportive acquaintances. one lady who was positive was even proposed to by her boyfriend. now that's the way, aint it?

alright, so these people made mistakes, but they're facing the consequences of their mistakes and it's a scary thing to deal with it alone. imagine the feeling when someone you counted on turns his/her back on you during your darkest hour. brrr. friend? or once friend? hmm. given the benefit of the doubt, i'd say friend. friend who just got shocked at the revelation and does not know what to do.

society needs to be enlightened about epidemics like AIDS. okay, okay. i know society already is, seeing that there are many organizations around creating AIDS awareness and stuff. still, i dont think it's enough.

just think about the innocent little kids who were born infected.

2007 will be a better year (even though i have a feeling it wouldnt)!

Friday, December 29, 2006

1988-2006

i left home today without realising that i was clad in an all-black attire. black cap, black shirt, black jacket, black pants, black belt, black slippers, black bag, black nails. i wasnt trying to be goth. it didnt occur to me at all.

as i was walking down interchange, i noticed a few people staring at me as they walked past. hi. i should've just held up a sign that said, "5 bucks if you can guess my favourite colour."

i would've probably earned 5 bucks since my favourite colour is green.

anyway, i really appreciated my friends and family for wishing me on my birthday, and even more for them to go all the way out to get me something.

anna and marcus got me a big bag(which i love because it's not too girlish and it's BIG) and A SET of quirky accessories in red and white. and knowing that i wasnt getting a cake this year, anna appeared at my door with a slice of bread spreaded with nutella(yum), WITH a little candle on top. sweet. bro got me a top(aww) and mom got me a pair of sneakers(let's see how long it takes before i put a hole in this one). lizhen got me a pillow(which i pretty much used as a bolster now). plus, we hung out at our usual place. it was nice. :)

[edit]: gee i cant believe i forgot to mention this. my friend called me up from australia to wish me and we chatted for a while. that really, really made the rest of my day.

thanks, everyone. your well wishes are deeply appreciated.

oh yes, i bought Razorlight's album. i'm still checking out their tracks but so far, i'm liking what i hear.

and now that i'm finally 18, it's time to...

look forward to being 30.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

tis the season to be jolly. TIS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY.

christmas eve was great.

i spent the day at anna's baking christmas muffins and brownies. i swear her mother secretly owns a bakery somewhere.

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chocolate chip and walnut muffins. yummalicious.

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walnut brownies. burp.

later in the evening, we met up with marcus for our traditional christmas coffee at starbucks. and once again, of course, i had my traditional drink, Mocha Frapp. well, ACTUALLY, it's not exactly traditonal(since i have it everytime i'm in starbucks. regardless of the season) but it was a great piece of workcup of coffee.

and yes, went over to anna's place at night to catch...

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for the third time.
and i still love it. actually.
um. *cough*

christmas day was a bore. christmas day was a chore. kind of pathetic in a sense. i spent the day doing...school projects. wow! it just had to be christmas! fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-lifeless. how apt.

the night was better. my family had some form of a "birthday" dinner at Riverside Indonesian Restaurant, and we ordered the same set meal that we ordered 2 months and 1 day ago. no regrets, people. the food was fan-ta-bu-licious(forgive me for my "___-licious" words. they should stop playing Fergie on the radio too often.). and pretty worth it.

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before.

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after.
yes y'all. make no mistake. my family can eat.

so anyway, i caught avril lavigne on trl last night and i just have to ask this question. WHAT HAPPENED TO MS LAVIGNEMRS WHIBLEY? click here to see her on trl recently as compared to 4 years ago. whatever happened to that angst-ridden teenager who smashed guitars and poured tomato sauce over a reporter's head?

*inner voice: "she got married." right. of course.
*outer voice: "but didnt she marry a rocker?"

on another note, something to do with school's troubling me and i wish i could just ignore it and say, "i'll worry later", but it's kind of impossible... NOW THAT EVERYONE'S TALKING ABOUT IT.

bah. bark.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

i had such a wonderful christmas eve.
pictures up soon.

all we need is love, actually.

Merry Christmas, everyone.

love.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

2007

marcus made me do this.

1. Will you be looking for a new job?
should i skip school? i probably would if i could. hmm.

2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
good question. should i skip school? because i probably would if i could.

3. New house?
I DONT EVER want to move. unless it's to another country. :)

4. What will you do different in 07?
i'll exercise more. oh wait, tried that. i'll eat more. oh wait, done that. i'll eat less. nah. i'll learn to stand up for myself. i'll grow up.

5. New Years resolution?
maybe if i write down goals that i dont want to achieve, they might actually work.

6. What will you not be doing in 07?
graduating. keeping the world at my feet.

7. Any trips planned?
no. i'll start planning now. let's see. california...

8. Wedding plans?
to the hooker next door!<- um, marc.
not until my tv says yes.

9. What's on your calendar?
'06- The Simpsons
'07- my friend just gave me a Nickelodean one. *bounces*

10. What can't you wait for?
all the s*** to be over. i dont know what they are, i just feel them.
or um, you know, Christmas.

11. What would you like to see happen different?
no more global warming. no more wars. no more soppy dramas.

12. What about yourself will you be changing?
"oprah!"

13. What happened in 06 that you didn't think would ever happen?
all i can say is that it's not very nice.

14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
definitely. i hope.

15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 06?
hmmm.

16. Will you start or quit drinking?
i dont drink.

17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
yes.

18. Will you do charity work?
if i can.

19. Will you go to bars?
unless i have to.

20. Will you be nice to people you dont know?
um, like walk up to strangers and give them a hug?
oh, nice. not affectionate. but of COURSE!
unless they're not.

21. Do you expect 07 to be a good year for you?
i want it to. very much. very, very much.

22. How much did you change from this time last year til now?
i've become more independent.

23. Do you plan on having a child?
sure. IN FUTURE.

24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with?
yes. dont curse.

25. Major lifestyle changes?
final year of poly education. IT SUCKS.

26. Will you be moving?
i do not WANT TO MOVE.

27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in 07 that happened in 06?
to care less abt issues that shouldn't bother me at all. <-yes!

28. What are your New Years Eve plans?
class chalet. my countdown with friends. my friends.

29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
no. *puckers up*

30. Wish for 2007?
happiness. loads and loads of it.

deck the halls with boughs of creepy people

i was walking around tampines area with a pal yesterday. now can someone please explain to me...

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why on mother's earth was tampines mall so packed?

and that was only the first level.

oh wait.
it was a saturday, and it was the eve of christmas eve. which meant, last-minute christmas shopping. *knocks self in the head* what was i thinking hanging out in such an overbearing environment? i guess i thought i was strong enough. tsk. such a fool.

*points at "dislikes" list*
i know, it's retarded to own a "dislikes" list and it makes me 12. not the point.
i fear crowds.
where are my pills?

on a lovelier note, i went to my primary 6 class gathering yesterday. things were kinda awkward at first but i guess everyone kinda warmed up as time passed. how often do you get to hang out with people who knew what you were like when you were 12?

some of them changed alot, some a little, but i for one know that i look the same. and so i've been told by the rest of the world. and by that i meant my teacher who taught me from primary 1 to 6. and the rest of the world.
dang.

p.s.: babies are adorable and child stars should never grow up.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

alright folks, more random malaysian pictures!

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Zealand Cafe? hmm.

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some trishaw man in the middle of the road. interesting.

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pssst. saw this standing in the middle of the sea when it was low tide. was it put there during world war 2?

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Sin Chew Daily. i found you.

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Sepang F1 Circuit.

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this looks alot like Raffles Hotel.

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penang's newspaper.

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going up penang hill. just how high was it?

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this high.

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they have a newton too.(melaka)

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another random picture that i took from inside the car.

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heaven sent.

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cheap but tasty food with a great boss.

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"fried bihun"

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dog eat world.

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how often do you see this on the roads in singapore?

and finally...

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the crazy family has returned for more portugese egg tarts.
yes, we bought them all. plus another tray with 4 more.
you should've seen the priceless look on the cashier's face.
i see yours.

now we know what we'll be eating for breakfast for the next few weeks.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

selamat datang

ola. i'm back. apart from the disastrous/hilarious road systems, the trip was great fun. and it wasnt even as expensive as we thought it would be. oh yes, i survived the 9 hour car-ride there.. AND BACK. and everything else in between.

on our way there, we stopped by melaka's mcdonald's for lunch and who did i see? this guy from school queueing up behind us. MY SCHOOL! in melaka! he kept staring and i kept looking. i guess we were both probably wondering the same thing. so anyway, before we left, he finally asked me if was from tp. and then we realised something. we were in the same french class. so technically, we were classmates. talk about coincidence. what are the odds?

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the mac that we met.
i had the double cheeseburger meal. it's 3 sing dollars.
bloogy cheap.

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i took this random picture as i was gazing out the window after running out of things to do in the car on our way there.

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the tiniest nasi lemak i've ever come across. it's only RM1.

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view from my hotel room.

we visited this temple called Kek Lok Si Temple(it wasnt planned), and boy, was it beautiful.

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the view looked like china. and yes, by then my ears were blocked. it was waaay high.

we needed to take this inclined lift to see the statue of the goddess of mercy.
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i felt like charlie in charlie and the great glass elevator(my favourite roald dahl book!).

ok skip that. there're too many pictures on that.

now the food? dang. it was delicious.
we had local food for 3 dinners, so we decided to have one meal at the hotel's cafe.

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day 3's dinner- before.

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after. burp.

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bro's dinner. damn. i should've ordered this instead. not that mine was bad, but that DAMN BEEF PATTY'S mama-licious!

this is random.
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last time i checked, there was nothing "upstairs". unless they meant the trees. now about the trees...

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we've been on the run, driving in the sun, looking out for number one. california here we come, right back where we started from...

ok i'm too lazy to put up more stuffs right now. i've taken way too many(way way). maybe next time. i'll put up pictures of the sepang f1 circuit as well. vroom.

i think i might just have to kowtow to my dad and brother for being able to drive us there, around, and back. maybe an extra salute to my dad. his navigation scores 100%. as for my mom, all she had to do was sleep. or say something. anything. because we laughed at everything she said.

after this penang trip, melaka just doesnt seem that far away at all. and woodlands? it's just 20 mins from home.

Friday, December 15, 2006

arrivederci

ah. finally. the day i've long awaited for is here. well, will be here.

come tomorrow, i'll be heading off to penang. the last penang trip i had was 5 years ago. 5 YEARS! and somewhere along the way something happened to me as well so it wasnt really a good experience. hopefully this time, it'd be a great one. *crosses fingers*

but that's not the point though. the point is, i'll be getting out of singapore. that's the whole idea. :)

my only question is: what shall i do in a car for 8 hours?

i cannot remember what i did the last time. i've brought my december issue of lime magazine(WHICH i have tried to refrain myself from reading for this trip) and 1(out of the other 60) archie comic. hm.

yes, i need to bring more.

will be back on this island on tuesday(o.c. will be back too. awesome). ciao for now.

p.s.: and i miss my snobby little junkbucket!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

the darkness.

"does this darkness have a name?
this cruelty, this hatred?
how did it find us?
did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?
what happened to us?
that we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war,
hoping for their safe return,
but knowing that some will be lost along the way.
when did we lose our way?
consumed by the shadows;
swallowed whole by the darkness.
does this darkness have a name?
is it your name?
"

just give me a few more years, rockefeller.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

so you think you can dance?

allison and ivan

my favourite couple. they dance so perfectly together.

contemporary Why

dancing Contemporary to Annie Lenox's "Why". what a beautiful performance (this is the best video i can find). love, love, love it!

Benji and Donyelle

2nd favourite. chemistry.

i already know who won, but i love them all anyway.
especially spunky hottie and little cutie.

i cant dance! damn it. guess i should just stick to singing.
oh wait, i cant do that either.

i really should be studying right now.

note how i refused to talk about my papers today.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

they made my day

Ellen and the Vacuum Kid


ellen- kid presidents expert


seriously, can i take them home?
they'll add to my collection that already has Little Ant & Dec.
no, seriously.

Thursday, December 7, 2006

in the name of...

competition, Competition, COMPETITION.

if i spend my whole life competing, then i ain't got no life.
but i got one.

stressed up.

"At this moment, there are six billion, four hundred seventy million, eight hundred eighteen thousand, six hundred seventy one people in the world.

Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just not facing the truth.
Some are evil men, at war with good
And some are good, struggling with evil.
Six billion people in the world,
six billion souls.
And sometimes…
...all you need is one.
"

tis the season to be jolly.

Wednesday, December 6, 2006

still counting down

knowing that i was looking for fabrics with patterns on them, my grandma(mom's mom) went home and scoured for fabrics around the house and brought them to my mom the next day to pass them to me.

thing is, those fabrics could not be used for my project because they werent in colours that i was looking for, and they werent the right kind of materials that i needed.

but i loved my grandma for doing that. she's such a cutie. when i saw the fabrics, i realised that a couple of them were actually bedsheets. so grandma had actually given me portions of bedsheets with patterns on them.

HOW CUTE IS THAT?

i love her.

anyway i'm in the mood again for christmas movies. you know, the typical happy-family-love-awwness kinds. i dont know, it just feels like it's something i gotta do at christmas. so far i've caught Christmas with the Kranks and Surviving Christmas on HBO this week(i know, those movies are way overdue). and as typical and predictable they were, i still enjoyed watching them.

it's christmas, i tell you.
and nobody ruins christmas for me.
no one shall!
unless you're the grinch. or jack frost. or britney spears.
(i just totally offended someone by saying that.)

19 more days!

Tuesday, December 5, 2006

are we trippin' yet?

tree hill 4 episode 9 was so flippin' awesome and heartwrenching to watch that i almost forgot my term tests are in 6 days.

somebody shoot me.

27 days to 2007. 20 days to christmas. 19 days to traditional eve coffee. 11 days to malaysia. 6 days to term tests. 4 days to anna's takeoff. 3 days to friday(episode 10). 2 days to mobcomp and lab test. 1 day to moodboard submission. 10 hours to school.

uh. and a partridge in a pear tree.

i hate counting down.

mocha chill gave me stomach kill.
damn you, big brown carton.

Saturday, December 2, 2006

Dear Santa,

it's been 2 years.

come on.

still waiting,
Seige

school's a bitch. simply put.

met up with a couple of close mates that i havent seen in a while just now. it felt good. it felt good to just hang out, talk, laugh and think about things other than school.

i'm missing a friend right now.
maybe it's because the year's ending.

school's been a chore recently.
not that it has never been one, but it's just been a real bitch lately.
i am mortifyingly-traumatised just at the thought of it.

that's right, i said, "mortifyingly traumatised".