20 Apr 2011: All the Stars and Boulevards

i'm leaving for Oklahoma in 10 days.



yet somehow, i'm not as excited as i should be. or as i thought i would be. to be honest, i don't think i'm even the least bit excited at all. and that's really strange.

some friends have started to countdown. some have started to pack. some are just plain excited. me? i think the most excited i felt over the past week was when i finally caught up with the rest of the world on Season 2 of Glee.

don't get me wrong. i've always wanted to go to the States (as we know from a certain green past). and this trip would be my very first trip there. in fact, this 3-week residency in Oklahoma was one of the reasons why i selected this course in the first place. and i'll finally get to go to LA. sunset strip, hollywood boulevard, disneyland...

...so why am i not feeling the excitement yet?

1 Apr 2011: Invented

it is april fool's day.

but today is a day that is way more meaningful than that.
not that april fool's day is meaningful at all. IT IS NOT.

today is the day that Jimmy Eat World performs live in Singapore. for the very first time.

but no, i am not going.

unfortunately, that is not an april fool's joke. unfortunately for me, that is.

so i've been trying to avoid all signs and posters that have been promoting this concert for the past couple of weeks. but facebook, oh, doggone facebook, keeps reminding me that there is an EVENT going on this week. yes, i clicked "maybe attending" back then. oh, harboring hopes like a fool, i was. believing in fairies even though i know they don't exist.

i haven't changed my RSVP status to "not attending". and i shall not...like that is going to change anything.

as i was typing this, i was reading the event page as well, and i just found out that the concert is going to be...three hours long. three hours. excuse me while i attempt to laugh this off nonchalantly.

at 8pm tonight, i am going to blast J.E.W. on my computer. this is as close as i can get.

if my mother comes in, i am going to get her to mosh next to me.