this is embarrassing.

i'm sooo tired my brains have gone into bimbotic mode. so let me apologise first. i'm sorry.

so i was reading the papers today, and i saw this report on what's to be "the most acidic row to hit the fashion world in 15 years", a.k.a. "Trousergate".

like the name says, it all started because of a certain design of a pair of trousers.

apparently, the old designer guy from Armani, Giorgio, is now accusing Domenico Dolce and Stefano Gabbana of copying his quilted trousers design that he did last season and putting that design on their runway show last week. or something.

hence the oh-no-you-did-nt bitchfight.

what started the row.

left: Armani's runway show last fall.
right: D&G's runway show last sunday.

okay. so they do look similar.
but honestly, i really dont know why they're having a row for.

both designs are hideous.

i dont know about you, but i, for one, wouldnt spend hundreds of dollars on oven mittens.

burn!

no truth to that.

i cant actually figure out if it's my colleagues who are funny, or me who's the funny one, but we're laughing way too much at work.

it's outrageous.

and it works for me.
it keeps my mind off serious things i dont want to think about.

see, there are people you laugh at, and there are people you laugh with. and then there are those that make you laugh. and those you make laugh.

with these people? it's like we're drunk everyday at work.

i like working with funny people.

it really is that little bit of insanity that keeps us sane for the day.

ironic, but it works for me.

vent.

i dont want to be one of those people.

am i lying to myself?

yes, i'm jealous.

okay get over it.

she quotes:

"There are two ways to alter difficulties: you alter the difficulties, or you alter yourself to meet them." - Phyllis Bottome

at age 20, you've lived 2 decades of your life pretty comfortably. you didnt have it all, but you had it all. i know. same words.

granted, over the years, a few things got you down. particularly one thing. so who would've thought that the one thing that made you feel incapable over the years would be the one thing that you would be fighting so hard for? there. the unpredictability of life. pretty amazing.

recently, you had a long heart-to-heart talk with yourself.
you had to make yourself understand.

you've made too many considerations. you were always considering what the whole world would feel but you would forget to think about how you would feel. then come the nights where you're lying in bed, staring at the ceiling in the middle of the night because, despite how sleepy and tired you were, you couldnt go to sleep.

now, you understand that the only one thing you can do is to maintain positive. after all, a little bit of positivity goes a long way. and you shall attempt to do so.

you're not 100% there yet, in terms of accepting the reality. the circumstances. but you know that it's a fact, so accept it or not, that's what's going on. and you will accept it.

besides, if there's a will, there's a way.
and if that's labelled as a cliched phrase, it is only because many people have said it at least once in their lives, which also means that many people have been through times in their lives where they had to use it. see? you are not alone.

so here's what i say.
you'll get what you want. because you want it. it might take you a while. so let it. there will be no white flag.

listen to yourself. you know what you're saying.
trust me.

Criminal Minds: Lo-Fi

oh my goshhhhh.



i swear my heart skipped a beat.
who on earth died?

damn season finale.

giving up something for the week.

day 6 without milo.

no vest with an 's' on my chest.

worst period cramps ever.

i've never had the case of 'getting mad at everyone' and stuff, but cramps are my killer. i've had bad cramps in the past, but yesterday's cramps won hands down. i've never felt so tortured in my life. i swear. not even with that wisdom toothache. the stomach cramps were painful, but it was the effing cramping of my limbs that was unbearable.

seriously. all four limbs. at the same time. is that even normal?

but i really, really do thank anna for coming up and trying to help me out before my mom came back. i was so sorry that she had to see me looking like Gollum. and that i probably freaked her out. especially since we were just having tim tams about an hour before that. but i freaked out myself.

my future boyfriend is screwed.
let me apologise first.

but anyway, thank you so much babe, you really did help. :)

being a woman really does stink at times. really.

i never, ever, want to experience that kind of pain ever again in my life. NEVER. ever. not for the next million years, no.

on to brighter things, i got my Kings of Leon album today. that quick huh? actually, it was more of a belated gift by Britters, who's about to enlist in a day's time. finally. free training okay, mate? i think he'll be just fine.

now, i shall go listen to my new album while i attempt to pacify my stomach.

it has been a while.

i shall get Kings of Leon's Only By The Night album.

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.