we were warned.

i just caught this movie:



(if you're intending to watch it, you might wanna skip the next part.)

21.12.2012. the day the world comes to an end.
or not?

do i believe it?

looking at what's going on in the world right now, with natural disasters and pandemics wiping out states and countries across the world, i see every possibility that it might just happen. i just dont think that it will all happen in one day. maybe over time, in years, one by one. the effects of global warming, perhaps.

maybe.

well, whether you believe it or not, this is the conclusion that i came up with after watching the show.

a list of things to do to survive the end of the world:

1) learn to drive. beats running for your life.
2) learn to fly a plane. but let another pilot fly it so that you can escape while he's trying to land the plane.
3) befriend a pilot.
4) learn to swim. helps if you can hold your breath underwater for an exceptionally long time.
5) own 1 billion euros.
6) go to china.
7) marry john cusack.

actually, if you just do number 7, you're pretty much covered.

a new beginning...maybe?

with a new home, i figured that it was time for a new layout.
hence.

life in the new home. i want to say that i've gotten used to it, but i dont think i fully have, so i guess the word to use is "getting" and not "gotten".

the house is alright, except for the toilets, which i'm not so crazy about.

i'm pretty satisfied with my new room. i mean, seriously, if you'd seen what the colours on the walls looked like before we re-painted it, you'd understand. sure, the room's smaller than the one i had previously, but somehow it's feels cosier, and y'all know how i like to youtube in the middle of the night, so cosiness is a plus.

okay, no link. that last sentence only just tells you what a geek i am.

speaking of youtube, guess who's going to south korea this december? okay, so maybe you're probably wondering what youtube has to do with that. well, let's just say cra-zee variety programmes with english subs. :)

i know, english subs are the best.

on a side note, however, s.korea recently declared red alert against the H1N1 virus. yes, it's not exactly the brightest thing you'd wanna hear after paying almost 1.2k to the travel agent a few weeks before that. yikes, is the word. i truly hope it gets better by december. pray, pray, pray!

stupid swine flu.
and stupid ganglion cyst that came back. what did my pinky ever do to YOU, dammit?

moving on to brighter(darker?) things. i'm finally going back to school next february.

honestly, i was excited beforehand, but now i think i'm more nervous than anything else. i mean, it's been a year and a half since i last went to school. i guess i might've forgotten what it feels like to be studying for something. oops?

here we go again.

SO LONG. WEIRD CREEPY GUY!

it's 1.33am. i'm looking at my room and realising how it's actually quite big.

my bookshelf's gone, and so is the little cupboard beside my bed.

it's beginning to look empty.

packing's been a chore, but someone told me that unpacking's gonna be an even bigger pain in the butt. i think i believe her. especially after seeing how much junk i actually own. i wish myself luck.

tonight is the second last night that i'll spend in this room that i've slept in for 13 years and in this house that i've lived in for 21. about half a year ago, we put our house up for sale. to be honest, i had secretly hoped that there wasnt going to be any buyer. but i knew we had to sell it. 3 months ago, someone finally bought it. i then secretly hoped that we wouldnt be able to find another place that quickly. yes, i was secretly selfish.

less than 2 weeks ago, we got the keys to our new rented place.

and this place? my precious sanctuary. my hideout. my boudoir. it's just going to be a place filled with 21 years worth of memories. okay, maybe 16 years, since i cannot remember anything much from the first 5 years.

the day is finally coming. wow, it is real.

boy, am i going to miss this place like crazy.

but SO LONG, WCG!

back for now. packed for now.

what a change. what a month.

i am finally moving out this weekend.

first and foremost, i would really like to apologise to everyone who's had to listen to me whine incessantly about moving. i'm really sorry, you guys.

so i'm not a very pleasant mover as you can tell. especially since it wasnt my choice. not the home that i've spent my entire life in. but when life throws you a curve ball, there's nothing much that you can do, except to accept it.

okay, i guess i've come to terms with it. i have FINALLY started to pack. seriously though, how do you pack 21 years of stuff in a couple of weeks? no, how do you pack 21 years of stuff at all?

the new home.

i gotta admit, it's looking slightly more pleasant than before. painting really does wonders. more importantly, i've finally found the one thing that i actually like about my new room.

the little window at the top corner of the wall.

it took me a while to scrape off half of what the previous tenant left behind on the window pane (some sticky paper thingy to block out the sunlight). the other half is pretty much too stubborn to be removed. but i'll make do. just as long as i can see the sky and clouds (and not what the person living opposite is doing) when i sit on my bed. yes, i shall call it my "little sky window". very creative, i know.

so much more to pack.

if i put my key under the pillow when i sleep tonight, is there a moving pixie of some sort that will appear?

the darndest things

talking about the nails on my big toes which are strangely slanted.

mom: your toes are exactly like your father's. not mine, your father's. your brother's toes look like mine, but not yours. you're just like your father.

me: well, at least that means i'm not adopted... right?

c'est la vie

annabella ballerina's leaving for france tonight. :(

see you in 2010, babe. :)

(okay, see you tonight. and then again in 2010.)

excuse my french.

argh. frustrations.

just where did we go wrong?
when did it end up like this?

this pressure. this invisible pressure.
this head. this expanding head.
these shoulders. these heavy shoulders.

i'm sorry, but what the fuck.

i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul.
i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul.
i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul.
i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul.