wow..reading my past couple of entries, i realised it sounds like i need to see a therapist.
i do not!!! lol! i'm just...

WHINY.

yea. but anyway, borrowed this "Drawing Cartoons" book from the library last week and it's a really great book! haha now it sounds like i'm a loser ("Seige! u loser!") for borrowing this kind of books. okay, but it's really cool! it teaches u everything!! *gets excited* Did u know that drawing an artiste in a cartoon-ed version is called a caricature? *does irritating "ooh" sound* I've been loser-drawing some.. Bruce Willis, Robin Williams, Elvis(it does not look liks him at all), Bill Clinton, Saddam blah blah blah... lol would have put the pics up but it's me. The completely-has-no-computer-skills-and-needs-help-from-anna-forever person. Thus, no idea. lol.

sudden note to anna: wade robson was on nickelodeon! lol teaching dance moves! -what?

Anyway, this song has been stuck in my head for days, i cant get it out! *starts singing again*

" Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one"

-Yellowcard, My Only One

ps: this is a really boring entry.

what's worse then taking the 'o' levels?

taking back the results.

i'm freaking out. badly. i know i've been blogging alot about how much i'm freaking out lately. but i just cant help it. i guess that explains me blogging now, at midnight(12.43am). well of cos, the other reason is that my bro's not home so computer's free(hmm). but me freaking out is a different subject.

i swear i'm not trying to irritate all those who have been trying to make me relax (esp u dear anna ,heh) about this. thanks for that but.. -lost all words to describe exactly how i'm feeling now-

i dont even have a quote.

The End Is Near

i'm told that the 'O's results will be out next Friday, 2pm.

*freaks out*

I mean, i knew it was either going to be on the 25th or the 28th. But this time i'm sort of being confirmed it'll be on the 25th. which means i wont even be able to take one last weekend on the 26th & 27th. Even the time is out.

*panics*

It's been nearly 3 mnths of break. i know. but i'm not ready for my results. i'm so not ready. i cant be like normal people who are confident of their grades so i am not ready. Please let there be some major screw-up at MOE and let them postpone it to a later date. Last night, as my mom was cutting stuffs in the kitchen, she suddenly asked me if i was scared about the results coming out. My reply?

"Duh, momma, duh~"

*pukes*

I just puked my guts out.

*breath runs short*

Quote: " i'm a simple person. A simpleton, perhaps. "- Cameron Diaz

i've decided to quit my job. everyone's gone, left, leaving, or not going back. i aint staying.

realised that the management there isnt actually- perfect. and well, i seem to pretty much dislike working there. thus, the above. maybe it's just me. maybe i have a pyschological problem about going to work. but i get pretty annoyed knowing that i have to go back there to work everytime. it's like, "man, this sux." besides, they aint that, "generous".oh and results are coming out..*freaks out* And to all royal blood out there-- NO i'm not a spoilt princess, your highnesses. i don't get served. i serve.

dad got a little shock when i told him i felt like quitting. but he supports it anyway. yay daddy. mom doesnt mind me quitting either. she's just afraid that i'll have nothing to do at home without a job. "hey mom, i'll go to the library!"

Quote: " I always want to go on stage first. I just wanna get it over with." - Missy Elliot

Cock-a-doodle-doo

now that the whole chinese new year frenzy has gone down for me, i shall update. (yes u may scream with joy, anna.)

new year's eve (chu2 xi1):
went back to NAS to visit e teachers. Canteen looks like a macdonald's area. DAMN. although it really takes up a lot of space, it looks nice! they always have to do this huh?!? they always have to do something the year after i leave. bleagh. lol but i'm still glad i left. went over to Pavillion to watch friends play pool. I DO NOT LIKE THAT PLACE, AT ALL. lol yes. it's just too... beng-sy for me. okay so maybe some nerdy people go there too but still, not a place for me. *looks at jean* -hums- lol.

Reunion dinner downstairs(my cousin's house) was delicious. Or maybe it's the whole atmosphere thing which made me feel so. but well, i love reunion dinner nights, so, i dont care. oh right, recieved most of my hongbaos that night.heh. Anyway it was pretty much the same as the previous years, just that this time my cousin and i had something to entertain ourselves. uh-huh. we got bored, went up to my house, took out the guitars and played rubbish for like 15-30 mins, and then (i rmb this procedure well, anna girl.) took a bakwa each, and went downstairs again. Lol wicked.

played mahjong later that night with anna, dad and mom. mom was soooo engrossed in the luck of the zodiac signs thingy on tv, whenever one of our zodiac signs came out, she'd run to the table to write what the guy said down. well here's bad news. that guy said people born in the year of the dragon should try to avoid eating chilli. WHAT?!?!? U'RE TELLING A GIRL WHO CANNOT SURVIVE WITHOUT CHILLI TO NOT EAT CHILLI?!? *sobs* i can't do it! <-ass. lol. erm, back to mahjong. was having fun playing it when suddenly at 12+ (yes gong xi fa cai already), phone rings. it was grams. ack. my cousin had to go down. so we er..lol we.. rushed through the last game. LITERALLY RUSHED. rofl. it was damn funny. so much for new year's EVE. there's more. lol. look down. 1ST day of new year (chu1 yi1):
well first day's pretty much the same as every year so went to the temples blah blah blah... That night was different though. went to KBOX (Pavillion again.-stares-) for karaoke with my cousins and brother. it was pretty fun, cos we're all like singing (badly, at least for me) and fooling around(my brother's darn funny).. until my cousin and her husband-to-be got drunk. i swear she was at least semi-drunk. lol and they were supposed to be driving us. anna and i were like,"woah, she's drunk. er, it's ok. we'll take a cab back."lol. thankfully there was HOPE. one of my driver cousin's still alive, so he managed to drive us home, which was about, near 2 am. late eh? heh.

2nd day (chu1 er4):
went to my uncle's new house for lunch. pretty cool house, judging the fact that they changed part of the backyard into their bedroom, behind the kitchen. woah. My uncle hired a lion dance troupe. so there was this lion dance performance just for us.. har har. *recalls lion-butt-touching thingy*. it was pretty nice and all, but real LOUD. lol i thought it was quite amusing tho, that our aunties,uncles and my mom all went up to look at the oranges on the plate, saying it was this number, that number, when all i saw was a "wang4" word. *opens mouth in amazement* how did they do that???lol. cute people. later on went over to another of my aunt's house and yada yada yada...

Dad drove us around that night because my bro wanted to take pictures with his digicam. We went from Boat Quay to chinatown area, and then to the central district.. Dad then brought us to this place(i can't remember the name) near the Fullerton hotel and we went up there, and the view WAS AMAZING!!!! We could see like all the buildings and like the whole central thingy... and the erm, back view of the merlion, and a beautiful view of Swissotel! It was sooo mezmerizing. i know i know, u'll probably say, "hey, it's singapore. what's so mezmerizing?" well i don't know but it was truly breathtaking for me. cos we were standing on a high level, and we were the only ones there, so it was a great atmosphere.AND hello? it's night-time! it's perfecct! could see all the suntec city buildings as well. However, i did feel a bit uneasy because no one was there, and i never knew that we were allowed to go up there. especially when the winehouse below is closed and there's no one in charge there. but dad kept re-assuring us that we were ALLOWED so.... HAHA U GUYS DIDNT GET TO SEE IT! nanny nanny poo poo.. *runs around like an idiot with hands waving in the air*

3rd day (chu1 san1):
went visiting to another aunt's house with my bro and dad. yes yes it seems like i have a lot of relatives eh? well mom and i were counting the other day and all in all, my dad's side and my mom's side added together gives me.....*drum roll*...... 79 RELATIVES!!! once again... 79 RELATIVES!!! 79 RELATIVES!!! 79 RELATIVES!!! 79 RELA *SMACK* right, i'm sorry. lol

watched the dvd of The Incredibles that night, courtesy of my cousin. It was my first time watching it. A bit lag eh?

4th day (chu1 si4):
Went to my primary school teacher's house for a little class gathering. tho there were only 12 of us, har, i havent seen a few of them since 2000!! so i couldnt recognise 1 of them, and i was like wondering to myself when he came," what's this guy doing in our group?" and then it suddenly smacked me in the head. "OH.... right.."

out of the 12 people there, i realised 10 were in JC. and the only one one working besides me COULD go to JC. it's just that she didnt want to. HOLY SMACKEROO! i think they made a mistake of putting me in that class back then. seriously, i was put in the wrong class. c'mon. 7 or 8 of them are in RJC, then others conquering MJC, TJC, TPJC, SAJC and VJC.. oh yea, i was put in the wrong class back then. They're all great people tho.. and i had a really great time with them back then. BUT i still think i was put in the wrong class. -shakes head-lousy management.

had a grand dinner that night at Pines with my other relatives and then went on to... (okay get ready for this again) KARAOKE. lol. wild wild hectic.

okay so much for 4 days of new year. lol lazy to describe more details. (quick u guys, count ur lucky stars! i know u're thanking god i'm stopping!)

but erm, i still wanna say that i loved Joss Stone's and John Mayer's performances at the Grammy's.. Especially John Mayer's. i mean, after all that crazy strong loud songs, after all the Greenday, Kanye West and all, suddenly u have someone going "...fathers be good to your daughters..." , it has such a calming effect. like, *breathes* ah, so peaceful.. lol. i loved the performance by the collaboration of Keith Urban, Tim Mcgraw, Gretchen Wilson and the other country singers.. it was a cool one. and can someone tell me how many times did Tim Mcgraw perform? he kept appearing on stage!

right i'll stop, i'll stop!!

ps: High School Reunion's last episode tonight! -excited-

Quote: " I don't have to stand in line...i'm Britney Spears!" - Britney Spears

a little update..

went to singapore poly's open house last thu.. it was alright..not exactly fascinating or anything but just alright.. was looking around and found out that i didnt know what course i wanted to take. *freaks out*

but then we headed on to the school of business and towards the media and communications area. VOILA! i found my course. after listening to the student there talk about the whole course and so, it felt so right. i wanted to take media and communications!

and then came the cold, hard truth.

cut off point: 12



bye bye Media and Communications! it was nice meeting u!

damn. just when u think u finally got it, it runs away. great. Ah well, i'm used to it. So i'll think about it 1st.. maybe i'll stick to tourism or so... Or maybe i wont even make it to poly. Well we'll just wait for the results to be out. Goodbye World! *jumps out of window*

*climbs back in* wait i'm not gonna jump yet. Chinese New Yr eve's tomorrow, why should i jump? i'm excited! not for the hongbaos but..i'm just into the mood so..i cant wait. Reunion Dinner too.. ah Anna.. once again. Lol. i can still recall a few years back, i was downstairs playing with you... ZEROPOINT! lol man.. gosh i'm so proud we've grown. lol. and rmb that time when ur mom's plate of kueh got knocked over?? haha. nope, i didnt say it was u. *runs away* Wont be blogging for this period now so.. GONG XI FA CAI!

Quote: "I hate being used." - Yours Truly.

High School Reunion?

After watching High School Reunion last night, i turned off the tv and lied straight on my bed, with the lights off and everything. It was 2am and i couldnt get to sleep.

i started thinking, " What will happen, if WE had a High School Reunion 10 yrs from now?"

wow, i really cant imagine it. really. what's really gonna happen 10 yrs from now? what should be happening 10 yrs from now? i really have no idea. maybe we should have a NASS High School Reunion reality tv show where they'll like, send us to Hawaii for 2 weeks and live in a house there with NASS's ex-students?

OR, we could just make a deal that we'll have a gathering 10 yrs from now and see how everyone's doing. u know, i think we should. i mean, not that i'm confident of going back as this huge lawyer or doctor or anything (cos i'll most probably be one of the most unsuccessful person around), but i'll really love to see what these classmates of mine become 10 yrs later. who's gnna be the first to get married? who's gonna be the successful business person? who's gonna be this huge lawyer? who's gonna be the first to have his/her face on the newspaper with a headline that goes: "Entrepreneur Of The Year- Youngest Billionaire in Asia!"? well, i'll probably be the first to have my face on the newspaper with the headline: " Too Poor To Afford Anything at 27". But hey, with one of my exclassmates being entrepreneur of the year, I'LL HAVE HOPE! so work hard u guys!!! BE THE BEST! heh. or maybe i'll be the billionaire. hmm, that's not bad actually. =)

i really dont know who's gonna be what, but i sure hope that everyone will become someone of potential or at least, someone with a good heart. See, i dont know if i can be the "potential" one, but i'll try to keep a good heart eh?

so maybe we SHOULD have a gathering or somthing 10 years from now. Oh but if u guys cant find me, it's most probable that i've migrated to australia or something. yea, but just email me huh? lol. Maybe u guys will see me on TV hosting a reality tv show eh? feel free to call my agent then! *thwarps self* "sorry." lol

But forget abt counting down 10 yrs for now. I'm still counting down to Chinese New Year! Only 7 more days!

Quote: "I'm looking into brick-laying." Keira Knightley

just watched Simple Plan's A Rock Special on MTV and it triggered my insides so much...

it is only now that i realise...

I SO CANT WAIT FOR THEIR GIG! i cant believe it's gonna be happening. and i'm gonna get it.

In the meantime, let me leave u with the lyrics to my favourite song:

Tell me what's wrong with society.
When everywhere I look I see.
Young girls dying to be on TV.
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams.
Diet pills,surgery.
Photoshoped pictures in magazines.
Telling them how they should be.
It doesnt make sense to me.

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me whats going on.
If you open your eyes,
you'll see that something is wrong.

I guess things arnt how they used to be.
There's no more normal family's.
Parents act like enemies.
Making kids feel like its world war 3.
No one cares,no ones there.
I guess we're all just too damn busy.
Money's our first priority.
It doesnt make sense to me.

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on.
If you open your eyes.
You'll see that something's wrong.

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society.
When everywhere I look I see.
Rich guys driving big SUV's.
While kids are starving in the streets.
No one cares.
No one likes to share.
I guess life's unfair.

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on.
If you open your eyes,
You'll see that something,Something is wrong.

Is everybody going crazy?
Can any body tell me whats going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes,
you'll see that something is wrong.

-Crazy lyrics by SP

Ps: As much as i love the show, AXN should just stop showing My Best Friend's Wedding on the channel! Watched it 7 times already!

Quote: " I hate rude stewardesses. It's like, " Hello, i'm paying. Be nice.'' "- Paris Hilton