wednesday night, i was told something that just changed my mood totally.

actually, i always knew about that issue because we've discussed it before but as the years past, it slowly became something of a distance away. that night however, i was reminded about it again. only this time, quite seriously.

i'll admit, even though i knew it was coming, i was still kind of unprepared. thus, my mood was really affected. really. i turned..well, sad. i couldnt help it. i still cant.

i realised there was no one i could really talk to about how i felt about that issue. and then, i recalled how Marc ''knocked some sense" (haha) into me at a conversation a few nights back.

all right, that was what i was gonna do. i was gonna talk to my brother about it. and i did.

it worked. i broke the 'phantom ice' between us both, and at the same time, i felt so much better. :) that's cool.

of course, the issue's still here and it wont go away for the next 6 months. but i shall will not be down until i know the outcome. i shall refuse to make myself miserable. no.

(dont worry, the issue here's not a relationship issue, neither do i have an illness. but dont ask as well. i'd prefer it.)

why is blogging becoming more difficult these days?

it used to be just bloggers typing down their daily events, and mostly, their thoughts on the things they see in life. good or bad. or maybe even expressing their anger on things they're unhappy with.

now, however, these people have to think TWICE before blogging their true thoughts and feelings on certain things going on around them for fear of being sued/ charged, whatever.

i would say the same thing goes for me. Not that many people or people with high power read my blog or anything but i still have to watch what i say. i fear being sued. heh. yes i do.

what do people with strong opinions do then? maybe they should just stop blogging and write everything down in their personal diary, and then pass it around their wide circle of friends.

what's that? OH they'll be sued too? oh yikes. sorry, i didnt know.

of course, there are limits to what one should say, especially on the net. no disagreement there. but it's come to the point where even the tiniest little thing like complaining about a store will sometimes make me think twice before bloggin it down. (ok, ok, so i'm a wimp.)

hmm, i guess what i'm saying is, write down your thoughts...but dont over-do it..?

this entry is stupid. i'm sorry.

Cinemas no more...for now.

i've just made a discovery. i've just realised that i've lost interest in going to the cinemas for movies. i have no idea why, but it could be due to the fact that i've not been there for a long time. for a while i missed it, but suddenly, i'm just not so interested..anymore(that's supposed to be read with your voice 'sloping up'). hmmm.

and then i realised how much money i've saved by not watching movies at cinemas. thiiissssssss muuuuccccchhh. wow that's quite alot.

so i just spent them all on food.

ok kidding. i didnt spend allll of it. right. heh. so i'm at the point where i think i'm just gonna wait for the shows to be screened on tv...which will probably be years from now. or maybe nothing really attracts me THIS MUCH recently? possible.

dont get me wrong though. i still love movies. :D

The Sms Of Doom...Light?

alright, despite many people telling me that it wont be so easy to fail in poly, and that i wont stay back a sem so easily, i had my doubts. BIG ones, and i really stuck to them. well, u see, i've failed quizzes all over.


sms came in this morning (i thought it was supposed to be tmr) and it said, "GS".


according to the website, "GS" means- "permitted to promote to the next semester." so i THINK i've passed. *wipes sweat off forehead*

5 years

i realised i forgot to blog about 6.10's gathering last friday at GPS's mooncake festival. tsk, me.


we sat at the Blk 445's coffeeshop which was opposite the school and chatted from 5 till 8 plus. it was lovely. it's funny listening to how most of my friends talked about how much they've missed the Roti Prata and Carrot Cake there, when i go there possibly, all the time.


from 12 to 17. we've grown. here's a short update on those who came:

One's still a smart talker, as usual.
One was able to keep in contact with everyone. kudos to that!
One came back from australia for a holiday here, sweet as always. :)
One's still close.
One was more hyper and active, compared to the past.
One turned into a joker.
One grew alot, with a total appearance change.
One slimmed down alot, and was...strangely happy. *ponders*
One was interesting. (Always, to me.)
One was submissive, and mature.
Make that two.
One did not change AT ALL. (not me.)
One's still the loser of that group. (now THAT, would be me.)


i love those guys.

Two Steamboats and Mateys on a Ship

i thought tonight was nice. ok, the food too.


i had a lovely time. :)

Around the world in 1 day

the NTUC carnival, "Experience the World" at the Expo just now was alright, i guess. i mean, i was ready for a boring performance thingy and speeches and stuffs by PAP members but it was NOTHING like i had expected.


instead, they made the entrance look like an aeroplane and when we went in, it's like we're entering different countries. there were the main attractions of many countries, and people were taking photographs everywhere.


my mom and aunt kept whining about forgetting to bring cameras along. :x dont look at me. I wasnt interested in taking pictures.


i was more interested in what monuments there were. i guess effort WAS made to attract our attention. like having a fake "Great Wall Of China" which was probably about, 1/10000 of the original length, "Taj Mahal" and more. people were also in costumes from that particular country and we were allowed to take photos with them.


errr okaaay.


there was this guy wearing a sumo suit sitting by the ring in front of "Japan" and i could see his jeans under the suit. poor dude, i felt so embarrassed for him.


and who represented the US? "Superman". a man in a buffed up Superman outfit. he looked...retarded. i'm sorry. nonetheless, miss snottypants here was definitely most interested in finding out more about the US. haha. but of course.


well, there was "Egypt", where i walked in the erm.. 'pyramid' and had a slight shock when i saw a coffin with a mummy in it, leaning on the wall. hah. good one.


"Netherlands". it looked the best. the windmill, the flowers and the dutch lady. the queue for the photo taking was one of the longest there. I think we know why. she WAS pretty.


let's just say i saw about 20 countries today. oh and i bought a shirt from "Hawaii". hur hur.


on a side note, i want to go to Michael Buble's concert on Oct 10 but i cant find anyone to go! someone. anyone?

i haven't been in the best of moods for the past few days. the ulcers in my mouth are hurting like freaking shit, like hell.


what pisses me off is that none of these ulcers were self caused. they're on areas that are unreachable for my teeth. which is why i'm pissed off. because they're hurting me soo bad.


originally, i felt a pain deep inside my bottom right gum. and then within a few hours i had 2 on the right and left sides of my upper lips. the next day, the 1 on my top left became 4. WHAT THE BLOODY ....? they're in some sort of pattern as well. and the one on my bottom gum hurts sooooo bad everytime i roll in my bottom lips. like a huge sharp bruise that hurts everytime you touch it.


now i have six f ing ulcers.


tried salt, gel & listerine. the ulcers are still there! i'm so disgusted because i feel like my entire mouth's infected. like my mouth is diseased. damn it. damn it!

Who Am I?

You're Donnie from Donnie Darko. You're kinda
creepy. You have issues and you talk to this
bunny Frank who says the world is going to end.
You might have a lot of anger inside of you,
but please, do not burn down any house.

Which Movie Character Are You?
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ok. i know who jake gyllenhaal is, but donnie darko? i have no clue. 1/3 of this is true. friends...BEWARE. (Anna, see what i mean? i swear i didnt cheat! lol.)

Pentagram tattoo(Note: this symbol is NOT satanic... It is the sign
of Venus. It means beauty SO BE HAPPY!)

What tattoo would you have?
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figured i'm never gonna get a tattoo anyway, so just checked this quiz out. and that's a pretty cool tattoo, i might add. although that redness around the arms? brrrr.

Blues?

it's official. my holidays have begun. for the next 2 months, i'll be a free little slugger at home. that's right, free.


what on earth am i going to do for that period?


i have no idea. you see, it's only the 2nd day after my exams ended on friday, and i'm starting to feel the boredom already. been looking through Classifieds (again), but i dont think i'm up for a job, because i doubt anyone would want to hire someone for just 2 months (and in case you're wondering, no, i dont think i'd have time to work once school starts).


the dvds at home bore me. cinemas make me broke. tv's running out of green colour.


bro cant take leave. mom doesnt want to take leave. dad has no intention of taking leave...i think. holiday with my family? not gonna happen.


i cant go on for a head-to-toe makeover. i cant afford it. (sponsors, anyone?)


maybe i'll just spend my days purchasing stuffs off ebay. yeah, that should do the trick.


i'm already starting to see my holiday being wasted away. uh-huh. as i'm typing this right now, it's wasting away. pa-thetic.


i think i should just get started on studying for my sub-papers. i've screwed the exams up, so sub-papers' definitely coming my way. oh, this is going to be fun. yay.


oh shit. wait. i'm sorry for being such a little slugger. today is a day that means alot to people who have lost family and friends in the 9/11 attacks. my apologies for being a brat.


a minute of silence for those who lost their lives.

Reviews

is Rock Star INXS a crazier show to watch than American Idol? Yes, if you ask me. why?


well there's the whole scene of them inside the mansion. you get to see what they're like. on stage, they get to head bang, jump and kick microphone stands. ok so maaaybe they can do that in American Idol too, but can they point their middle finger to the crowd? aha.


the other thing is, these competitors are not wannabes. they're people who can truly bring the house down. and i dont think they're manufactured, unlike the idol shows. no, i'm not biased against american idol because i happen to think kelly clarkson's fab.hah. maybe it's because there're too many seasons of AMI and it got boring. like smallville.


having said that, i shall now contradict myself by saying, " i want to watch season 3 of One Tree Hill now!"


ok i'm sorry, but i do! there're so many unanswered questions. i need to know the answers. like, "who killed dan?" and "what's gonna happen to lucas and brooke?" and the list goes on. singapore better show the third season here or i'm gonna boycott mediacorp. i am. hmpf.


what? tv addict? me? nawww...


*tiptoes away silently while no one is looking*

LET THEM OUT

Let them out! let the victims of Hurricane Katrina out!


tell me, what IS THE POINT of locking them in centres or stadiums if they're not gonna get any help? SURE, you promised them they'd be safe and get help only if they stayed in. SO WHERE IS THE HELP?


if help is given to them, ACCORDING to what was promised, fine. but THEY'RE NOT getting any. so now, they've got no food, no resources, no proper sanitation, and what's worse? they're being locked up somewhere and they cant get out.


what is this? it's only making the situation worse. why let these people die day by day when they could be out there, at the very least, "WALKING" (as Geraldo Rivera and Shepard Smith exclaimed) to the next state or shelter, or somewhere where help COULD BE GIVEN?


it doesnt matter what goes on in the government right now. these people need help, damn it!


and DON'T get me started on the whole issue on racism.


it's just sad. "Sad" is seriously the only word that can really describe this entire scene right now.

now i know everyone's been blogging about this but i'm not a follower or anything. i just had to say my piece.

The Usual...

oh you know... the usual.

i screwed up today's mathematics paper, blah blah blah...

what on earth is happening in the U.S.?


it's crazy. when i saw the headlines on the papers this morning, i knew it was more than just a hurricane that's affecting the people. something serious is going on. this is scary.


i had no idea how bad the situation was, until i really sat down and read the pages and pages of reports printed on today's newspapers. it actually got to a point where the mayor of New Orleans said that it was no longer a place to live in and that everyone who could, should evacuate if they can. "Uninhabitable", he said.


this hurricane is not the only thing destroying the people's lives. the lack of speed of the sending of resources is killing them as well. when i read about President Bush's slow response to the disaster, and how he was holidaying at his ranch while it happened, it got me to thinking: what if this had happened in Singapore? what if we had the same situation in our hands?


i guess things will probably be different because we're so tiny, we'll have no where to run to for shelter, and we'll be swept away, AS A WHOLE. yes, we'll be off the map.


quote BBC news: " There are many helicopters, landing and leaving like a bizarre scene from Vietnam portrayed by the Hollywood studios. Only this scene is real."


i cannot emphasize again how scary that must be. and looters everywhere trying to make use of the situation to do more bad things makes it worse.


i cannot believe this is happening.