the school life.

i'm stressed.
i'm breaking out.
i'm not getting enough sleep, and this time it is not because of youtube.

when i get stressed, i get hungry. and then i eat. alot. you wont believe the amount of junk food i have stuffed down my body over the past week or so. no, you wont believe it. it has also been more than 2 months since i last went jogging. good job, seige. keep doing this to yourself, genius!

school has been fun, really. but deadlines? not so much. i know, i know. when has it ever been?

eating, though, is definitely fun. no...wait, where am i going with this?

yes, i am stressed. oh, "desserts" spelt backwards.

desserts. yummm.

Quote. Unquote.

"Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy."

-Cynthia Nelms

The Godfather

Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew

I hope this man lives until I die.

counting down.

one more day.

one more day to my first examination in 2 years.

i am dead nervous.

and yet, strangely excited.

alas.

trumpets and trombones in the afternoons. long, melancholy tunes. that's what i've been hearing every couple of days, for 2 weeks.

trumpets + trombones + long, melancholy tunes= ?

i wondered, no, i really wondered, why there were funeral processions going on every couple of days. are there really that many people dying in singapore recently? so how many have died already?

today, i heard it again.

what a depressing neighbourhood, i thought.

i looked out my window. a carpark away stood a secondary school. i've always known we lived near one for the 6 months that i've lived here, but i never knew we were that close to it.

and then it hit me. ah, yes.
SYF must be coming.

the world is bright again.

life as we know it

"If having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say i'm a failure. The important thing is not to bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognise that everyday won't be sunny. But when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it's only in the black of the night that you can see the stars, and those stars will lead you back home.

So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you.

The road is long, and in the end, the journey is the destination."

- Coach Whitey Durham

no mercy

ants. my mortal enemy.

you disrupted my studies. i destroyed you.

dont come back tomorrow night. i will crush you guys like ants.
oh, that's right. i will crush you, like you. again. with shieldtox. i mean it.

i need to finish this chapter.

ayo.

i've been suckered into the dirty world of media and technology.

i'm not at internet phones yet, and i'm okay with that, but one of my biggest fears now is to wake up one morning only to find out that my computer cannot be turned on.

i've waited for people for more than an hour before, but i have 2% tolerance when it comes to computers.

that's when the anger management program comes in.

my, look how i've fallen.
oh technology, you play dirty.

"When you can make the average great, your dreams can become a reality."

i just had a lovely chat with someone i havent seen or spoken to in quite a while.

a hospitable host.
an amazing chef.
an aspiring actress.
a witty, adorable and fun person to hang out with.
the elder sister i never had.

sweet memories.

i'm really glad to know that she's doing so well and going places in life. it appears that all her dreams are starting to come true and i'm truly happy for her. :)

it's funny how one's happiness can rub off on another, even if it's just via msn. i'm feeling inspired already.

OCU

school starts on the 8th of March.

it's official!

NERVES.

can you read my mind?

i JUST found out that The Killers' concert which was supposed to happen tonight was cancelled about a week back due to unforseen circumstances.

in case you didnt know, i wanted to go to their concert really badly when i first found out about it, but i couldnt find anyone who was interested as well, and by the time i did, the tickets were already sold out. it was Coldplay 2006 all over again! sheer disappointment.

but now that i know that they didnt come at all, i feel sooooo much better. i actually grinned for about 3 minutes when i heard the news. i even told my mom about it, and she had to pretend to be interested (since i whined to her about not being able to attend the concert this afternoon). i know. my poor mom who's probably still wondering why anyone would ever call themselves "The Killers".

i feel really bad for the people who bought the tickets though. i can imagine how sucky they must've felt when they heard the news. i know i would've bitched about it. yikes.

well i'm getting the tickets the next time they come. i shall. :)

Good Riddance

it's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
i hope you had the time of your life.

Green Day's concert last night was absolutely BRILLIANT.


**this was not taken by me

i had the time of my life.

Seoul far, seoul good.

twenty-ten.
time for an update.

2009 ended on a pretty nice note for me. i guess, working the entire year paid off as the trip to Korea was nothing but fun and enjoyable for me. to put it simply, i had a blast.

my toes were frozen on most days, but i still loved the freezing weather despite that fact. it made the perfect excuse for a nice cup of hot cacao from dunkin donuts. plus, the layers of clothes helped to hide whatever extra weight i was putting on from all that chocolate. i know. i was self-convinced.

now i didnt(still dont) exactly know how to speak the Korean language. so i decided to throw in whatever i'd picked up from the variety shows that i had watched before. we started out feeling slightly embarrassed about it, but by the end of day one, we were throwing in words even if they didnt make sense. come on, at least ONE word had to, right? :)

from the beautiful nature on Jeju Island to the bright lights and tall buildings in Seoul city. walking to the macdonalds near our hotel in the evenings for ice cream and fries. entering every supermarket in sight to see what they were selling(even though they pretty much sold the same things). chatting with the grandmothers who were pulling dead grass off the ground. learning to make our very own kimchi and bukkumi. falling down about 16729345 times on the ski mountains and gaining about 6 bruises on my left leg after that. nodding our heads and saying "kamsahamnida" to everyone, everywhere. the discovery of Binggrae banana milk, fish sticks and Lotte throat candy.

the friendly tour group, the honest tour guide and most importantly, the crazy, whacky, fun and awesome companion i got to travel with. :)

i loved them all.

which was pretty much why i suffered from major post-holiday blues for about 2 1/2 weeks after i returned. uh-huh. that long.

well, you just wait for me, Korea. i'm definitely going back!

star king

5 more days to korea.

i should really start packing.

okay, maybe tomorrow.

splurge.

i spent a total of $1168.90 on gadgets in 2 days.

anyone who knows me knows that i'm not a gadget person. talk to me about the latest gadget models and i'll stare at you blankly like a goldfish with one lazy eye. heck, i didnt even know what model my mobile phone was when i first got it. actually, i'm still not very sure what model it is. nokia 6500...slide? uh, yeah, i think so.

but anyway, seeing that my original budget for a laptop(which was neccessary) was 1.2k, getting 3 gadgets for under that amount seems to be pretty damn worth it.

let's just hope they actually last under my hands.

we were warned.

i just caught this movie:



(if you're intending to watch it, you might wanna skip the next part.)

21.12.2012. the day the world comes to an end.
or not?

do i believe it?

looking at what's going on in the world right now, with natural disasters and pandemics wiping out states and countries across the world, i see every possibility that it might just happen. i just dont think that it will all happen in one day. maybe over time, in years, one by one. the effects of global warming, perhaps.

maybe.

well, whether you believe it or not, this is the conclusion that i came up with after watching the show.

a list of things to do to survive the end of the world:

1) learn to drive. beats running for your life.
2) learn to fly a plane. but let another pilot fly it so that you can escape while he's trying to land the plane.
3) befriend a pilot.
4) learn to swim. helps if you can hold your breath underwater for an exceptionally long time.
5) own 1 billion euros.
6) go to china.
7) marry john cusack.

actually, if you just do number 7, you're pretty much covered.

a new beginning...maybe?

with a new home, i figured that it was time for a new layout.
hence.

life in the new home. i want to say that i've gotten used to it, but i dont think i fully have, so i guess the word to use is "getting" and not "gotten".

the house is alright, except for the toilets, which i'm not so crazy about.

i'm pretty satisfied with my new room. i mean, seriously, if you'd seen what the colours on the walls looked like before we re-painted it, you'd understand. sure, the room's smaller than the one i had previously, but somehow it's feels cosier, and y'all know how i like to youtube in the middle of the night, so cosiness is a plus.

okay, no link. that last sentence only just tells you what a geek i am.

speaking of youtube, guess who's going to south korea this december? okay, so maybe you're probably wondering what youtube has to do with that. well, let's just say cra-zee variety programmes with english subs. :)

i know, english subs are the best.

on a side note, however, s.korea recently declared red alert against the H1N1 virus. yes, it's not exactly the brightest thing you'd wanna hear after paying almost 1.2k to the travel agent a few weeks before that. yikes, is the word. i truly hope it gets better by december. pray, pray, pray!

stupid swine flu.
and stupid ganglion cyst that came back. what did my pinky ever do to YOU, dammit?

moving on to brighter(darker?) things. i'm finally going back to school next february.

honestly, i was excited beforehand, but now i think i'm more nervous than anything else. i mean, it's been a year and a half since i last went to school. i guess i might've forgotten what it feels like to be studying for something. oops?

here we go again.

SO LONG. WEIRD CREEPY GUY!

it's 1.33am. i'm looking at my room and realising how it's actually quite big.

my bookshelf's gone, and so is the little cupboard beside my bed.

it's beginning to look empty.

packing's been a chore, but someone told me that unpacking's gonna be an even bigger pain in the butt. i think i believe her. especially after seeing how much junk i actually own. i wish myself luck.

tonight is the second last night that i'll spend in this room that i've slept in for 13 years and in this house that i've lived in for 21. about half a year ago, we put our house up for sale. to be honest, i had secretly hoped that there wasnt going to be any buyer. but i knew we had to sell it. 3 months ago, someone finally bought it. i then secretly hoped that we wouldnt be able to find another place that quickly. yes, i was secretly selfish.

less than 2 weeks ago, we got the keys to our new rented place.

and this place? my precious sanctuary. my hideout. my boudoir. it's just going to be a place filled with 21 years worth of memories. okay, maybe 16 years, since i cannot remember anything much from the first 5 years.

the day is finally coming. wow, it is real.

boy, am i going to miss this place like crazy.

but SO LONG, WCG!

back for now. packed for now.

what a change. what a month.

i am finally moving out this weekend.

first and foremost, i would really like to apologise to everyone who's had to listen to me whine incessantly about moving. i'm really sorry, you guys.

so i'm not a very pleasant mover as you can tell. especially since it wasnt my choice. not the home that i've spent my entire life in. but when life throws you a curve ball, there's nothing much that you can do, except to accept it.

okay, i guess i've come to terms with it. i have FINALLY started to pack. seriously though, how do you pack 21 years of stuff in a couple of weeks? no, how do you pack 21 years of stuff at all?

the new home.

i gotta admit, it's looking slightly more pleasant than before. painting really does wonders. more importantly, i've finally found the one thing that i actually like about my new room.

the little window at the top corner of the wall.

it took me a while to scrape off half of what the previous tenant left behind on the window pane (some sticky paper thingy to block out the sunlight). the other half is pretty much too stubborn to be removed. but i'll make do. just as long as i can see the sky and clouds (and not what the person living opposite is doing) when i sit on my bed. yes, i shall call it my "little sky window". very creative, i know.

so much more to pack.

if i put my key under the pillow when i sleep tonight, is there a moving pixie of some sort that will appear?

the darndest things

talking about the nails on my big toes which are strangely slanted.

mom: your toes are exactly like your father's. not mine, your father's. your brother's toes look like mine, but not yours. you're just like your father.

me: well, at least that means i'm not adopted... right?