Deep Thoughts at Dawn

i couldnt get to sleep again so i was just randomly searching all over online, reading blogs and i just found out this news:

Anna Nicole Smith's 20 yr old son died in the Bahamas on Sunday, a few days after the birth of her new daughter.

i'm sure we all know who Anna Nicole Smith is(and her story). naturally, i wouldnt say i'm a fan of hers at all, but i'm not going to say anything bad right now because she just lost her son. i never even knew she had a son, but no matter what, losing someone you love hurts really badly, and my heart goes out to her.

a moment of silence for the victims and heroes of 9-11.
a moment of silence for aussie's croc hunter, Steve Irwin.

you just never know when your last day's going to be, do you? sometimes we all wish we do, so that we can let everyone we love know how much we love them before we leave. the thing is, we dont know. and i think that leaving without having the chance to tell your loved ones that you love them would be the biggest regret ever. so we should tell them everyday, every moment, at every chance.

it's just...it's kinda harder to do that in asia. feelings are just so much harder to express. i think 2/10 kids here say "i love you" to their parents everyday. i wouldnt deny that i'm among the 8/10 of them. parents dont say it to their children as well. it's probably the way we were all being brought up. everything is just a step-by-step procedure that we follow tightly that there's actually not much space left for expressing our feelings. deep down inside we say it all the time, but that whole wall on the outside...sometimes, it seems like a pretty sad thing.

ok i really wanted to just blog about the Anna Nicole Smith news and i have no idea how i got to this.

oh well. i'm just glad my dad arrived in Coventry safely. and he mentioned that his hotel was located in a little town/village kind of area and the weather's perfect. and he saw a castle. just how flippin' awesome does that sound to you?

i wished i was there instead of here, worrying about the sms of doom that will come on thursday. i have a strong premonition this time that there would be a supp paper for me. crap.

no wait. i'm just thankful that everyone i love is healthy and safe.