Tuesday, June 28, 2005

stolen Questionaire

stole this WITH PERMISSION from anna's blog. oh wait. so i didnt steal.


Questionaire!
Are You?
*sensitive = occassionally
*easily hurt = depends, really
*calm = most of the time... i aint.
*quiet = looks so...until u know the real me. well, there are times when i get too lazy to talk &...
*choosy = picky?
*active =*yawns*
*very shy = sometimes. most of the time i'm just shy.
*confident in urself = no.
*brand-conscious = not really.
*a good listener = i should think so. am i?
*easily bored = erm...pretty much...yeah,i guess.
*outgoing = u tell me.
*open-minded = quite.
*an only child = nah. i'm the only daughter... does that count?
*happy at the moment = moodless.
*tired = freakishly
*playing any online games = never once. lol *looks at anna*
*good at Chess = i dont know that game.
*tempted by chocolates = everyday.

Do You ?
*believe the term 'love at first sight' = nope. but i believe in 'attraction at first sight' though
*have someone you really care for presently = my family n friends
*believe in love =of course i do
*ever cheated on a test = *coughs*
*play the guitar = badly.
*play the piano = nope
*like your life = there are times i do, there are times i dont
*like school = hate school
*like dancing = sometimes. not much of a dancer though
*like sweets = i have a sweet-tooth
*like travelling = NO ONE CAN EVER STOP ME FROM TRAVELLING OVERSEAS. do that and i'll bite ur head off. *shows teeth*
*own an Xbox/ playstation = bro does.
*like Spongebob Squarepants = you bet.
*ride a bike = used to. think i've forgotten how to now. heh
*read Harry Potter = 2nd book onwards..
*read a lot = nope..but i'm trying to
*yell at your siblings =argue is the word. but that's all in the past...
*argue with your parents = when things go wrong
*feel like quitting this quiz = it's alright
*love McDonalds = pretty ok. love long john's!
*play basketball = tries to?
*play badminton = *nods*
*play tennis = erm...no. *looks at anna again* heh.
*play bowling= i suck at it.
*swim = i do. but seldom now. (gee i should go exercise real soon)
*watch Disney channel = I DO, so arrest me.
*love movies = it's part of my life.
*like Oreo = yea. the original tastes the best!
*like chips= not much
*do the housework = every saturday. a little help?
*love your friends alot = mmm
*prefer your past life to present life = i only have one life. and i'm living it now

Will You?
*get more than 5 piercings = doubt so.
*curse a friend = we'll see. lol
*hug a stranger = depends
*sneak out alone at night = never.
*work for Donald Trump if you had a choice = i cant. i might scold him in dialect uncontrollably.
*further your studies overseas = it's my plan
*try summoning a ghost for fun = why would i? never.
*try alcohol = we'll see again.
*love someone wholeheartedly = if i can, i will.
*smokes = put that cigarette in front of my face n u're tar.
*ever hug someone = of course
*look someone in the eye = yea
*do stupid things that finally made you embarrassed = all the time.
*say sorry to someone = all the time.
*thank someone = all the time.


Questionaire #2
1.Most attractive feature of a guy is? his personality.
2.Would you date anyone out of your race?what is race when there is love?
3.Do you like older,younger or the same age?older...probably same age's fine.
4.Would you date a guy who smokes?never. but if i ever do, i'll make sure he quits.
5.Does he have to be rich?money is nothing.
6.Do you prefer taller, shorter or the same height guys?definitely taller. that's not hard to find is it? lol
7.Do like guys with facial hair?doesnt really matter. if he looks good, why not? :D
8.Name four important things u look for in guys?he has to be humourous, understanding, has his own stand, and loves me.
9.Would u date a guy your friend likes or used to?um... i dont know..
10.Would you want a guy that is or is not a virgin?is, please?
11.Short or long hair guy?short. :)
12.HONESTLY, when it comes down to dating a person, do looks really matter?i'd be lying if i said ''no". but let's face it, i'm not much of a looker anyway, and looks are only superficial. what matters most... is definitely the heart.
13.Do you like guys that are built or more skinny?built but not too buffed up.
14.Do u want a guy who would pay for everything? we'll take turns eh?
15.Do you like guys who are romantic or buddy-type? both.
16. When it comes to relationship, are you picky to choose ur partner? when the time's here we'll see.
17. How many times you've fallen in love ever in your life? not yet...

Monday, June 27, 2005

ok i just blogged a whole chunk of rubbish on what i did on friday but the damned comp chose to hang, so that whole chunk of rubbish's gone. let's just say, i was at ease on friday, having some alone time to gather some thoughts.

and yes, i failed my very first java test. no surprise to that.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Lifeboat

i dont know where to start. alot of things to be done recently and i cant help but wonder how much longer i can take this shit. i dont know.

i feel like there's so many things going on and i'm struggling to catch up. i dont seem to be that far behind, and yet i feel like there's a long road in front of me and people are all the way at the other end. there's no car for me. no bicycle. just my two feet. the subjects are getting harder to understand and the more we learn, the further i am behind...

and then the groupwork. there are four of us in a group for the IFCPROJ. Four. but it wasnt until i really sat down and thought about it, that i kinda realised that...i'm doing most of the work? it started off with me just copying down some pointers the teacher gave us. and then my leader started telling me to copy down everything. but that's alright. i mean, i could be the "copier" right? but then last week when our teacher reminded us to get ready our group file that would be inspected, she told me, "swee hoon, today must go buy the file. then go print out the stuffs. can find in the ole website k?"

does that mean....i'm supposed to do it? so i looked for the company, copied down everything, and have to get the file ready? ok, it might seem as though it's just these few things and not much of a big deal. but here's the thing. we're not even officially started on our project. and i'm doing everything already. yeah, this is everything for now. One's telling me to do all these stuffs, and the other two's not that involved yet. so y do i feel like i'm starting to stress out over this already? i mean, they're all my closest friends in class. am i being taken for granted, or am i just plain paranoid?

and then there's the other project on hand where we had to work in pairs. nothing wrong with my partner. except, he doesnt really like to talk much. so i dont know what he wants. every reply he gave me was," *shrugs* anything lor. u decide." and we hardly talk. i have to keep asking the questions if i ever want to get anything out of him. i'm tired.

recently, people around me started telling me that i look stressed these days. this is wrong. i'm not supposed to be like this. i was never this way. before, whenever i knew that i had alot of things to do, i could usually just give a "heck care" attitude to it and be like, "tomorrow's problems, tomorrow's worries." but now, when i think of all the work that have to done next week, it worries me. it just keeps on adding to my worries. i just keep thinking about it.

thinking

and

thinking

and

thinking

and

thinking
...

i dont know what's wrong with me. i want to talk about it, but at the same time... i dont. i just want to be alone. (i am so heading to the airport on friday)

lost.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

this might sound surprising but the dreamweaver(IFCPROJ) class today was actually pretty ok. reason: there wasnt anyone there who was stressing me out with his/her constant yelling of not being able to open his/her files. usually i wont be able to, and i'll get a panic attack. heh.

not today. because only 9 out of 23 people went for the class. OBVIOUSLY, i'm one of them. yes, everyone else decided to skip today's class since they were getting nowhere with it and it was stressing the hell out of them. ok i know i was stupid to stay behind. i mean, i still feel so! but...i dont know.. it's just me. i swear i was so tempted but most of the time i dont use these opportunities. stupid, aint i?

but i it didnt really matter now that it's over. because the class was so quiet and peaceful, i was pretty relaxed. plus for the first time, my teacher actually helped us! :O

anyhow, i'm so crazy about Rooster right now. i know it's just a phase that wont last but RIGHT NOW, it's happening. heee heee. i liked them before but after watching "Rooster- Busking in the sun" on mtv where they busked accoustically at Orchard Road, i've become c-ra-zee about them. i loved how the guitarist played all the tunes. Like honestly, Luke, can u pleeeaaaase teach me how to play it like you? please? *twinkles eyes*

and i'm in love with Nick's voice. it's actually kinda sexy. ;) although i seriously think he needs to cut his hair.

i feel like buying Oasis' album as well. Somebody stop me!!!

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

cds have been my batteries in school these few days because i kinda lost my reciever last week and bro was kind enough to lend me his discman. i found my reciever last night, but decided to continue to bring along a much bigger, bulkier and heavier object(discman) because i found out that cds would be much nicer to listen to when i'm having non-productive moments (as compared to radio , that is).

it also gave me the opportunity to rate and comment on my newly-boughts. lol yes. havent exactly got the chance to listen to the albums completely due to..erm... uncontrollable, addictive cd purchases recently. they just kept rolling in. heh.

Reviews:
Lifehouse-Lifehouse: has a little chill-out-coffee-house flavour in it. might think that most of the songs sound similar the first time listening but after a couple of rounds, the songs actually have individuality and some of them are really good. great to listen to when u're alone in the room thinking about nothing. Favourite song: All In All. Seige-scale: 7.5/10

Rooster-Rooster: lots of pop-rock tunes in it. a couple of mellow rock/pop-ish songs. great album. :) Suitable to listen to at any time. Favourite song: To Die For. Seige-scale: 8.5/10

Keane (b***t lol)- Hopes and Fears: a couple of the songs are a little boring but lots of great tunes make up for it. very much different from the two above. nice to listen to when u're bored at night. or when u need music to put u to sleep(in a good way of cos). Favourite song: Everybody's Changing. Seige-scale: 7/10

Jack Johnson (*u*n*)- On and On: chill-out-coffee-house music. great tunes from the very talented surfer dude. very mellow and relaxing. suitable to listen to at night, and when u think u're way too stressed up. (thanks ANNA!!) Favourite song: Taylor. Seige-scale: 8/10

Coldplay- X&Y: um, u really have to judge this urself. u'll either love it or hate it. it'll probably take some time before it'd really grow on u. Favourite song: Fix You. Seige-scale: 7.5/10

and now..let me leave u with the lyrics of one of my favourites.
"i wanna live
and i wanna breathe
always thought you'd be the one to set me free
But i can forgive
cos you make me believe in something more
now i only want to live if i can find
Find somebody to die for"

Rooster- To Die For. (*claps*)

Rooney next!


NO WONDER i'm broke.

Monday, June 13, 2005

I dyed my hair! the colour's now visible and invisble at the same time! hmm...*looks into the mirror*

Thursday, June 9, 2005

Nightmare on Tam Ave 21

dreamweaver just kills me. kills me all the time. and what's better? our teacher refused to teach us because she insisted that we should learn it ourselves only with the help of the book. plus, she also mentioned that we should already have basic skills since we are info-comms students. f off. we're still students, and dont generalise. THE LEAST she could do was help us when we needed it. that's what teachers are for...helping students. .....isnt it?

the dreamweaver class sucked (yea i'm sure you can tell by now) because apparently, what we did and saved last week(which consisted of unit A- unit D) was disabled. in other words, they were gone. naturally, most of us freaked out. sure, this wasnt something that we needed to hand up to the teacher, but without units A- D, how the hell were we supposed to continue units E-G, which SHE said we must complete by tomorrow's lesson?!? some lucky people saved their stuffs into their thumb drive, so they still had it. I DONT HAVE A DAMNED THUMB DRIVE.

trying to retrieve that stupid thing was freaking exasperating, and when people around me started managing to retrieve their stuff, boy, i almost had a panic attack. i havent got it yet, but i'm sure i'll have it real soon. you just wait and see. :) Anxiety disorder symptoms- coming up!

as if i didnt feel sick enough, on the bus back, this boy and girl (i typed boy because i decided he wasnt mature enough to be a guy yet) sitting right behind me kept "flirting" with each other in a i'm-just-playing-coy-but-you-should-know-i'm-flirting way. makes sense? of course, i refused to turn my head and look at them but i couldnt help listening to them. (oops!!! :P) and then she went like, "*laughs* no! no....*the back of my chair shakes* hahahah..no...*shakes again* dont want! very ugly..haha*chair feels her pushing and kicking*". -_-

a while later...
girl: *laughs*hey give me back my ic.
boy: lalalala
girl: ooi.. give me back my ic leh..
boy: *talks about another topic*
girl: ooi! wwhy u want my ic for what? give me back my ic.. give me back my ic lah..*chants "give me back my ic"*

oh my god. i almost wanted to turn around and beg him to give her back her ic so i'd actually have some PEACE!!! for crying out loud, BOY (he's definitely older than i am), give it back! give it back! *growls* and in case u were wondering, he still didnt give her back her ic when i arrived at my stop. wow.

ok, i know i complain alot. but that aside, something amazing happened. me and a classmate whom i always thought was a fierce, not-exactly-social guy who looked like he would beat me up if i stepped on his tail, actually conversed A sentence without him frowning and actually smiling a little. holy. it's history in making. i know it's just one sentence, but... he ACTUALLY DIDNT BEAT ME UP! :o Pen down today's date u guys.

more dreamweaver tmr. *grumbles* i just want it to be 1 pm immediately. i sooo need the "trip"(*winks at anna*) right now. thankfully, Tree Hill's back on tonight.

Wednesday, June 8, 2005

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BELIEVE THIS!

time passes quickly when you're having fun. that is so true.

these days are passing by so slowly (no points for guessing how much fun i'm having :p). i can so fall asleep along this...endless journey.


heard from my friends that there's a new haunted house at Escape. anyone interested? not me. heh. i already said it once. i'm a scaredy cat, and anything involving the mysteries of the beyond and the invisible? not my cup of tea. Books, however, are different. *hums*


9 more days to her wedding (mmm...sheraton. i like)! i just need to make it through 9 more lousy days, oh i meant 8 *winks at anna*, and then...

"Ladies and Gentlemen, let us rise and and welcome...the bride and groom!"
*'American Idiot' plays in the background*

awesome.
totally. :)

wondering what this post has to do with my title? Nothing. i just wanted to capture ur attention ( because i know u can get bored reading my blog). heh. *looks away*

random: everyone loves the pavilion. WHY? oh yeah. it's me. *grins at anna* "DEFEAT AND CONQUER!" (honestly, i just drank coffee. it's the caffeine talking.)

Monday, June 6, 2005

we had inter class captain's ball game on sat. yea, i played. i volunteered. well only because they needed at least 2 females per team and none of the girls wanted to join at first. oh well, one has to start the ball rolling eh? anyway heard that there'd be cca points for that, so i'm not losing out on anything. :)

the captain's ball game really showed the other side of some people. in fact, i think any game like that would. it showed how competitive one could really get, and the crazy side of people i never thought i'd see in them. wow. ugly sportsmanship, good leadership, better bonding, over- competitiveness. all i can say is, "man..u had to be there."

i think that day helped a little. i mean, playing. it's been a while since i last played captain's ball and well, i guess you can say it brought back great memories. memories of secondary school days, where we had loads of fun playing that game NOT BECAUSE OF THE GAME, but because of the people we played with. Funny. because as it brought back old school memories, i swear i saw some of my sec 2 classmates playing soccer in my school. hmm.

back to school again. gah. but i have something to look forward to, so i think i'm gonna be in a pretty good mood as the day approaches. or at least, i hope. :D

Friday, June 3, 2005

my thoughts are drained out.

feeling abit uncomfortable with some things going on around me... and that's not even about the studies. well i'll just have to wait and find out.

of course, i'm not saying that i'm comfortable with my studies. they're way beyond hope now. *shrugs* i dont know.

argh.
Mocha Time.

Thursday, June 2, 2005

Dehydration

with regards to anna's post on wed, 1/6/2005 (go to link above, AGAIN), i'd just like to add on something else that has come to my attention and has terribly annoyed me.

the availibility of seats on the bus.

most singaporeans do this. sitting on the outer part of the seats when the inner part is empty. i dont have a problem with people doing that when there's lots of empty seats around. i mean, i do that sometimes too. But it's different when the bus is really crowded and there are people squeezing and trying to hold on to the bars or handles or whatever they can grab to stay balanced. and these people( meaning people sitting on the outer part when e inner is empty) just pretend to not sense what's going on and look out the window.

now that, pisses me off.

c'mon, it's not as if we have some fatal bacteria that will spread to them the moment there is any contact. there MIGHT NOT even be any. instead of being those selfish, inconsiderate people that they are (or will be the moment i start complaining), why cant they just move in and let someone else sit so that other standing people will have more space?are their butts really that heavy? are they?or do they have something against sitting on the inside because they're like, terribly allergic to inner bus seats and it's some rare disorder even doctors cant explain?

look, i get that sometimes they do that because it's only a few stops to theirs and they want to alight easily. nothing wrong with that. but at least come out a little so other people who WANT to sit can move in and take that place eh? dont pretend not to look at the crowd and look out the window. it doesnt work that way. seriously, havent u got the consideration at all?

on another note, school is killing me. i dont really get the stuffs anymore. like, stop this whole shit. i want nothing. and secondary-school-peer-relationship seems to be occurring. in a.. i really dont wanna talk about it.

one more day to the end of a school week. thank goodness. that is all that i can take..