i just got off the phone with a friend and we've come to realise that we have similar styles(and how people always say we are so alike), but our concepts of life are so different. let me just talk about it.
she's the planner. she has planned all things from here to there, and she's planning for more. her mindset, or idea, of how her future would be, i would safely say, has already found a spot somewhere in her head. she knows what she needs to do in time to come, when we get our diploma. for starters, the choosing of our CDS. she's chosen business courses, and researched on how each course could benefit her in future. she even knows what she can do in future with the course that she's taking now. she's got the route ahead of her planned, and it should work, if it goes along accordingly. and she's got a very stable and well thought mindset for an 18 year old.
how can i say it? well, she plans her life. and i would say that that would be a very good start for a good future.
now me. i dont think so much. i'm a dreamer, but not much of a thinker. i have visions of what i want, or wish, to be in years to come, but that's it. i know we graduate in a year and a half. and i know what that leads to. it's either university, or out into the real world. the working society. i am NOT excited about that, f.y.i. and because of that, i feel that we have so little time left before we send our fresh bodies out into the society where we will slog like hell, and WORK, WORK, WORK. we will be entering the "dragon's cave" and it will be a long time before we can get out again. we will be fighting like hell to survive the world of hungry men and women. hungry for power.
you know how they say we work to survive? ironically, i feel that we're being paid for our funerals. we're earning the money so that we can afford our funeral. okay, my thoughts are exaggerated, big time. i digressed. (i have the tendency to do that.) i.am.not.having.a.panic.attack.and.will.not.resort.to.smoking.pot.(think o.c.)
but as i said, we have so little time left to choose to do what we really want before we make THE decision and live with it. which is why i chose something totally un-related to my course for my CDS. something that i'd like to think i'm actually interested in. i know what my future will be like with this diploma and i choose not to think about it. YET. it's not that i dont give a damn and plan to loaf if i get nowhere in future. it's just that life is so short, and i dont want to think too much about it when i'm only 18. yes? no?
i wouldnt say that would be a very good start for a future, but i only get to live once. it's not like i'll die, and have the chance to come back and say, "hey, last time, that didnt work. so i'll go for the other one this time." time passes way too quickly. come on, a friend of mine is already enlisting(so who dares say christmas is still a long way?).
so you see how totally different our mindsets are? we talked about how if our lives were made into a movie, she'd be all dressed up smartly in a business suit, hair made up, a briefcase on her hand. and i'll have paint all over my clothes, wearing slippers and a brush on my hand. but we'd both be smiling, meeting for coffee. (actually we talked about alot "more" and how we should totally sell our idea to spielberg but that's another story. *cough*)
thing is, our thoughts on how our way of lives should be are different, but our ultimate idea in the end is still wanting the same thing. to be able to enjoy our lives.
we were both multi-tasking during this phone coversation. she was talking to me while printing out the notes for school(which starts on monday. great.) and i was talking to her while searching for more guitar tabs. you see what i mean?
which is strange how we've been friends for 5 years.
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