Gong Xi Gong Xi

hectic schedule. craaazy work. unfinished junk. stressed up brain. drained thoughts. hyperventilation. nervous breakdown.

my therapy? My Chemical Romance's [Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge].
What you should do, is blast it on your radio 3-5 nights in a row. sometimes it really works.

chinese new year is here. my best therapy...for now. it's finally here. i'm finally getting a break from all these "k-fed"(<-my other word that means "stupid") work i have to do! i know i'll have to get back to them, or as a matter of fact, get ready to present them, once school reopens on Wed. but i'm not gonna freakin care for now. i need a break, and i'm gonna use it well.

well, until tuesday of course and then it's back to reality, girlfriend.

reunion dinner tonight.
happy chinese new year everyone. Gong Xi Fa Cai.

New Day

i finally found time to blog. i've still got so many projects to complete, although most of them are at least 1/4 done..finally. phew....like i'm ever going to be able to finish them.

the past 5 days or so felt like 5 years. the funeral and everything.. it was so hectic and crazy, i felt as though it would never end. but it's all over now. it's ended. i think i learnt alot from the funeral. alot about my family, alot about my grandfather, alot about chinese customs. those traditions. hmm.

i think my mother's back to normal. i'm pretty sure she can't be that normal yet but she's definitely better. and turns out my family is gonna celebrate chinese new year after all. i better step up and get everything done then! *nods*

my only question is...where? hm.

so we bought lots of stuffs for the chinese new year today. loads and loads of them. bags and bags of them. we got our pussy willow.

in the evening, we received news that my grandpa had passed away. 96 years of age.

death for him is just another journey to another place. a happier place maybe. no more suffering in pain. i'm happy for him.

she's... back.

i think the wet weather's gone for good. or at least for now. the rain was such a pain and a gain. i didnt like having to shelter myself from the rain every morning for the past 2 weeks. but i loved the cool temperature. if only Singapore was this cool everyday. if only.

but hey, with Mother Nature playing her tricks on the world right now, Singapore might just snow one day. just one fine day. i wonder if that's a good or a bad thing.

anyway, i'm starting to feel the pressure lately because i've got loads of projects on hand and a few of them have to be completed before the Chinese New Year. lab tests coming up and oh, a math test on the eve of the eve of cny.

yay. boy, that's what i need to get me in the mood. *snaps fingers and does a thumb-up*

i can't wait for chinese new year. i really cant. nobody around me seems to be getting in the mood. i know, the pre-festive-season spirit in me is here... again (everybody go, "SIGH."). just like christmas.

okay now my friends are gonna start to avoid me. hmm.

SO as i was saying, chinese new year is coming. made LOADS of pineapple tarts at my aunt's house the other day. enough to set up a stall for a day i think. really. i guess it was pretty fun to learn how to make goodies like these(especially if you're doing it with 5 other ladies around. kinda like..ladies day! or um, grandma's knitting class.)..until you're doing the 4,789,346,203th tart. then it got pretty tiring. who knew that one could end up suffering from a sore back and tired feet..just from making the innocent little pineapple tarts?

so it really is my duty to eat them up during new year, for making me do all that hard work. oh, the sacrifice.

*sniggers*

gonna go to chinatown tomorrow. hopefully we'll find a pussy willow. hey if i can't get a christmas tree, at least let me enjoy my pussy willow okay?

ps: i still don't think they should keep playing new year songs everywhere. they get..annoying.

A New Year

it's been a very slow week, probably because i'm still in the whole holiday mood. some things we did, i liked. some, i didnt.

we got back 3 out of 4 of our exam papers.2 of them, i thought i did pretty ok. but as predicted, i failed my java. and badly too. i'm really starting to wonder what i'm going to do when i graduate and start working in the society. where is my place going to be if i'm failing my main module this badly? i wouldn't have a teacher or a friend there to help me, so i'll probably get fired.

then where do i go? i don't know. and i'm 17 already. and if you count by the year, i'm 18. dammit. i have no idea where i'm going. the freak out begins.


Dr William Tan tried to set a new Guiness World record on Thursday by wheeling himself around my school track for 24 hrs. we had to participate as well by running around the tracks. me, being the lousy runner i am, ran a pathetic number of 3 rounds. i was panting like a tired old horse after 2 rounds. pa-the-tic.

but i guess i did feel pretty good after the run. i thought i would've dreaded it, but i ended up feeling good. i wouldn't say i'm proud of myself(god, did u see? i was pathetic!) but i'm glad i ran. because to be honest, after being hyped up earlier that evening, i felt a little sick in my stomach and i almost considered going home. shame on me.

thankfully, i didnt. if a parapelgic person could go on, i should. i did.(still not proud of the fact that i ran 3 pathetic rounds though) heh. i do have a different perspective on certain things in life now. i must admit, he's a pretty admirable man. he never gave up. we shouldn't too.

oh yeah, i was freaking out a moment ago?

still am.

alright, now i'm contradicting myself.

(oh and people, keep the parks clean! :) )

Auld Lang Syne

ah,31st december. as suggested by anna, i shall blog about my year. my 2005.

i don't remember much. so here goes...

2005 Highlights:

release of the 'o' level results
the month before i was nervous. the week before i was sick in the stomach. the night before, i was breaking out cold sweat. that morning, i was out walking around TM with my friends before we went to school, as though nothing was going on.
it wasn't as bad as i had expected. i only knew i was happy because i knew i was able to enter poly. PHEW.

Simple Plan- Still Not Getting Any concert (30th of March)
my first real-time concert. Suntec Hall 601. the day started out bad, but once they came out to perform it got better and better. it ended up well..only that i ended up having muffled ears for about nearly a week. i vowed never to attend another concert for the rest of the year. Tomorrow is a new year.

survived my first week in poly (24th of May)
i actually managed to do so without getting myself into any trouble. i was lucky i got into a class where everyone just kind of became friends within 2 days. awesome.


stepped out of the country twice.
2 day trips to Malaysia. hey, it's better than nothing.

JAVA.
bah, i hate it.

dyed my hair.
didnt really work the first time. or the second. or the third. or...
i.have.stubborn.hair.

nail-polish craze
i don't know what got into me, but i got into a nail-polish craze this year. and what better to begin than owning my very first black nail-polish. then many others came along. la dee dum. my nails are brown now by the way.

Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire
it finally came out. i didn't think that it was as good as the 3rd one though. but woohoo i caught it.

diarrhoeas.
never had any for such a long time but this year just seems to be my d-year. either i'm being punished for something, or i just kept eating the wrong food. either way, PLEASE LET 2006 BE DIARRHOEA FREE.

Holiday On Ice- Hollywood (9th of Dec)
what can i say? good looking people in skates. anyone would love to watch that. :)

my birthday
believe it or not, but this is the first time in 17 years that i've actually had friends celebrate my birthday for me. because i always tell them not to, since i'm not really the celebrating type. but i really appreciate my friends for doing it. i had a great time.

there you have it. like i said, i don't remember much.:)

my TOP 10 songs of the year:

1) Fix You- Coldplay (i love this to pieces)
2) Helena- My Chemical Romance
3) Wake Me Up When September Ends- Greenday
4) Home Sweet Home- Motley Crue & Chester Bennington
5) Don Cha- Pussycat Dolls
6) Do You Want To- Franz Ferdinand
7) Lose Control- Missy Elliot feat. Ciara & Fatman Scoop
8) I Don't Wanna Be- Gavin Degraw
9) Welcome To My Life- Simple Plan
10) (maaan i can't believe i'm saying this) Hung Up- Madonna

(Kill- Jimmy Eat World nearly made it to the list!)

happy new year, all.

Pretty

tell me guys, how sweet is it when your friends celebrate your birthday for you, even when you told them there wasn't a need to?

let me tell you. *opens both arms out wide* thiiiissss sweet.



i was a little tired, but i had an awesome time last night. awesome. although i must add that it was a little awkward for me because i've never really wanted to be the center of attention at any point (heh). that kind of explains why i was shushing everyone when they started singing"Happy Birthday". no, they were sweet. i'm the weird one. awesome bunch of people.

my friends...everyone of them...awesome.

For My 17th Birthday...

i turn 17 today.

when i laid on my bed last night, i thought about a lot of things. about the things in my life to be thankful for. the things that some people will not have in their lives ever again.

i am talking about the victims of the Tsunami 26/12/04.

i counted down to Christmas at Anna's place. we carolled. we watched "A Blessed Christmas". we ate. we wore our "I Believe In Santa Claus" santa hats. we "boggled". we whacked each other with the MTV Asia 2004 premium thingies. we were nuts, but i had fun.

then i got home, and i caught the Tsunami special on CNA. they were showing real life video footages of the people who survived and were taking the videos as the tsunami struck. it suddenly didn't feel so right to be happy anymore.

i watched this couple get washed away as they tried grabbing someone's hand to be pulled up to safety. this family was pinning themselves against their house as the waves rised. 2 children got swept away. it's like a movie, where you see the characters get washed away, but you know they'll still be there in real life. only that wasn't a movie, it was real. they weren't coming back.

my bro thought that we shouldnt watch something so depressing on Christmas. we were playing Scrabble. the four of us.

i'm thankful for all that i have. i really am now. sure, i dont get parties and presents like cars like the kids on My Super Sweet Sixteen for my birthday. but the victims of the disaster have no homes, and i have a comfortable one. they have lost their loved ones, and i have them right next to me. i even get a cake. i wish there's something i can do for them. anything. maybe offer a hug. anything.

for my 17th birthday, i shall be thankful for everything i have...

Happy Thoughts

finally, the exams are over. i am 150% sure that my java paper is screwed really badly. i dont even know how to describe it.

anyway, tis the season to be jolly...

tomorrow's the long-awaited day...Christmas Eve! i shall erase the unpleasant, traumatic experience of doing my exam papers for now and be happy. and of course, it's also the beginning of my holidays! sure it's just 8 days, but it's the beginning of my holidays! awesome.

we need santa hats, damn it.

oops, i said happy.

i have to go back to school for 6 whole hours next tuesday. BUMMER.

happy thoughts, happy thoughts!

I will talk, and Hollywood will listen.

Bad case of diarrhoea on thursday night and yesterday. i have no idea why because everything i ate the day before, someone else ate the same thing. whatever it was, it wasn't very nice. try having to go to the toilet like, 6 times... in between your precious sleep. it didn't help that i was gonna have two tests the next day. definitely didn't help at all. it undesirably sucked.

which also reminds me: i think i screwed up my BNT paper. hoorah.

but after a visit to the doctor's, a half-hour sleep and some medicine in the afternoon, i felt alot better by evening. and after an afternoon of consideration, i thought i felt alright enough to go to the show, "Holiday On Ice-Hollywood" at the expo with the complimentary ticket i got.

only when i got there did i realise that the ticket i was holding on to was worth $98, which was the most expensively priced one. we were sitting *inhales* right smack in center of the last row of the front-sector*exhales*(so close to the rink) where the view(minus the man sitting in front of me) was absolutely perfect. i'm glad i didn't waste the ticket.

Hollywood was worth every of my post-diarrhoea-resting time. the show was, how should i say it... spectacular. i dont care if some people thought it was retarded(*whistles at anna*). it was absolutely lovely.

an entire large group of good-looking skaters dancing to the different tunes from films made in Hollywood, and also doing some little acting from some movies, stunts included. they skated to tunes from Titanic, Dirty Dancing, Fame, Footloose(which i loved)..just to name a few. their moves were sooo beautiful, i just wanted to go up there and justtwirl...and twirl...and twirl... ok, i'm sorry. so as i was saying, they had gorgeous skating moves , props and costumes. everything was so pretty. sure, there were a couple of times that some of them fell while doing that spinning in the air move, but did you think anyone mind? of course not.

one of the most exciting moments would have to be the part of the movie 007, where "James Bond" jumped across 2 fire hoops on skates. there was a little magic going on as well, the part where they locked him up in a wooden box and he came out from the audience section in a different suit. ah, James Bond indeed. *raises eyebrow* Charming man, he is. The same guy who played the baddie in the Charlie Chaplin segment. the same guy who jumped over 5 or 6 people kneeling next to each other, on skates. kinda like one of those charity shows on tv, except this was much cooler.

my favourite part would have to be the Moulin Rouge bit. Gorgeous skaters, gorgeous settings, gorgeous moves. the best part was when the entire group did the "can-can" to Fatboy Slim's "Because We Can" tune. the moves were so well coordinated. the line was so straight. the costumes were so striking. i wanna do the "can-can" too.

the best skater had this mega-watt smile. he Never.Stopped.Smiling. and his teeth were so white, they should stop endorsing Sylvester Sim. c'mon, let this man do what he should really be doing- toothpaste or teeth whitening commercials. oh that perfect smile. he was undoubtedly the best skater though.

of course, not forgetting these 2 characters who made everything funny. they were these 2 guys who were "auditioning" time and time again just to be able to act in hollywood. one was big and tall, and the other was strong but small. they would appear in between segments and do funny moves for the "director", who kept saying "NO" until the final part where he finally said "ALRIGHT!". aww.. they finally signed the contract. everyone in the audience started cheering. it's like we watched them change from nothing to something.

it was a fresh experience.

oh did i mention that we saw the Team Singapore Gymnasts who got gold in the Sea Games too? yeah we did. Lee Wen Si was really pretty. ok that was kinda random.

anyway, because of this show, zhen and i couldnt find a right time to meet. i feel so guilty about that. sorry zhen(if you ever read this), i only knew this at last minute! i promise i WILL find a day to meet you soon. but i think i got my just deserts. diarrhoea.

*yawns*

i was pretty tired at school today. didn't really sleep much last night due to the extremely humid temperature my room was experiencing. i'd fall asleep for about 10 mins and then wake up suddenly again. i was checking the alarm clock every single hour and counting down to how many more hours of sleep i had to the time to wake up for school-6.30am. 6hrs...5hrs...4hrs...3hrs...2hrs...1hr. my alarm clock rang. Mom opened the door. she woke me up as usual. not that i had actually fallen asleep.

and yes, it rained this morning. heavily, in fact. even when i stepped out of the house. Mom was snuggled up warmly under her blanket on the couch like all rainy days, reminding me to bring along my sweater to school. not this morning. this morning, i needed no sweater. all i felt was humidity. so warm i think i was almost grouchy. ---i'm starting to think the tea i drank last night(at the airport with my family) might be a suspect as well.---

the 17 yr old air-condition in my room needs some fixing.

managed to catch the movie "Pretty Woman" at the school library today during break. my 4th time watching it, i should think. hey, at least it relaxed my mind for a while. and it is Richard Gere. :)

tests are coming.

tired.

Farewell

Talk about karate and the first person that comes to my mind is Pat Morita, better known as "Mr Miyagi" from the "Karate Kid".

I just came across the news that he has passed away on today's newspaper. It kind of came as a shock to me, even though i knew that he wasn't very young anymore. It's sad, i think, especially since i just watched "Karate Kid 3" yesterday on AXN. My favourite character has passed on.

I've been a fan of the Karate Kid movies for years. "Karate Kid 1", "Karate Kid 2", "Karate Kid 3", "The Next Karate Kid"- you name it, i caught it. Caught them all. Watched them all for umpteen times, i'm telling you. Ralph Macchio. i know that guy. that's right. that's how much i loved the show. In fact, i think all that watching throughout the years has probably taught me a skill or two on karate. really.

No doubt about it-Mr Miyagi was definitely my favourite character in all four films.

The good ol' "Wax on...wax off...Wax on...wax off..." & "Man who catch fly with chopsticks, accomplish anything."

taglines i'll always remember.

the newspaper also talked about Elisabeth Shue's and Hilary Swank's Oscar achievements, which i distinctively remember telling my dad the exact same thing a few weeks ago. And both movie stars starred in the Karate Kid movies(not that Elisabeth Shue played a really big part though). i know so much.

so back to Mr Miyagi, or Pat Morita as i shall say now. I think they should have a wax figure of him in Madam Tussaud's wax museum. i really think they should. one can never leave out the man who said that "karate is for defence and honour, not for tournament."(something like that.)well give him the honour, i say.

It's a pity he's passed on, but i don't think i'll forget Mr Miyagi. ever.

I salute you, Morita-san!

ps: don't find me weird. please. :)

Just another random entry

french lecture and tutorial on the past 2 days were pretty fun. i'm starting to get the hang of this language, and i'm liking it. :)

i'm not understanding math. the lecturer's not that bad, but i'm just not understanding it. i'm kinda worried about that. i cant not understand math. not especially math. more practises, i know. the thing is, i dont even know how to do the practises. i'm kind of standing on the edge of a cliff right now with math. woah. too risky.

I WILL TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT. i'm gonna.

i mean, it's math. it cant be that difficult...can it?

it's amazing how fast time passes. it's already wednesday, which means 2 more days and then it's the weekends. yay. of course, when it's the weekends, it'll be 1 more day to Monday again. all over, and over again. over, and over, and over again. sigh. i'm getting depressed even before it's the weekends.

*snaps out of it* i spotted 2 christmas trees in school already. TWO (i was so tempted to steal one of them.shhh)!!! 2 is good, more is better. i'm pretty sure a school like mine is capable of being really handsome for christmas. well at least there're 2. i'm liking my school a little bit more now. :)

OOH....WOW...AHH..

something's taken over me. something powerful. something strong. something that's defintely not Jack Frost.

yes, something very christmas-sy.

i don't know why, but i just feel extremely excited about this year's christmas. i've always loved the christmas season, but somehow i am so looking forward to this year's. it's nothing to do with the plans anna and i made, i'm pretty sure. actually, nothing in particular. i just have NO IDEA why this year seems to get me so excited! i really don't know!

i bought myself a christmas decoration when i was out. i did. and i've planned to decorate my room for christmas(mom allows me to decorate it as long as it's not too messy) even though...my family doesn't celebrate it at all? wait. my family has never really celebrated christmas. then what on earth am i doing getting so excited about it?

woah. i think i've found out why.

television. that's right. it's always so perfect on tv. Christmas, that is. i mean, the tree, the fireplace, the snow, the decorations... all so perfect. i know they're just tv shows but they looked perfect. and i think this time around, there may be a part of me that cannot take it anymore. I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS YEAR'S CHRISTMAS. i guess?

maybe it's just the fact that i'm turning 17, and i'm starting to realise that if i want to have my own christmas, i can have my own christmas. *nods* that must be it. i've freaked a couple of my friends out already, going nuts ("oh my god look at that lovely tree!!") everytime i see a pretty tree. i'm sorry you guys, i can't help myself. i want a christmas tree! heh. ok, i'll try to restrain myself from going up there to steal the tree and embarrass you guys in public, i promise! :)

~36 more days to christmas~

ok i'm officially a nut.

ps: i watched The Goblet Of Fire today. i wouldn't say it was as wonderful as i expected it to be but watching it still made my day. (hah. easily contented.) :)

Quiz-ified

quizzes again!


You are the A Walk to Remember kiss!


Which Movie Kiss Are You? (With Pics!!!)
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awwww. suh-weet.
if only i DO get to kiss Shane West though. heh.


You're a Pregnant Britney!?!? wut happened to you
PERSON? lol jk!


Which Celebrity Are You? (girls only!) And With Piccies!
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i...am...Britneypregnant Britney?
HUH.



The Traditional Princess

You are generous, graceful, and practical with both
feet planted firmly on the ground. You tend to
be a little on the old-fashioned side. You
value home, hearth, and family life and love to
be of service to others.

Role Models: Snow White, Maid Marian

You are most likely to: Discover a hidden talent
for spinning straw into gold.


What Kind of Princess are You? - Beautiful Artwork (Original Music is BACK!!!)
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hmm it does sound a little true. *whistles the "seven dwarfs" tune* oh sorry. u mean snow white?


Wow! This red dress is sexy, and not to exposing.
Get out of your ho-hum routine and make a very,
cherry statement!


What party dress are you?
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woah. i'll never be able to fit into anything like that. never.


Quote: One day my soul has love, because what else
can I do but wait

You hide hope. You have a happy exterior but on the
inside you are sad and waiting for something to
fill the empty gap within you. People don't
understand that you hate this world. You just
want to find you reason for being here. You
want to find someone who is true and is there
for you. I hope you find them, I'm sure you
will. Don't worry things have to get better
sometime just hang on.


~We all hide something from the world...What do you hide~(with beautiful dark pictures)
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this is partly true. some quizzes are just so scary sometimes.

When will it end?

terrorism, natural disasters, diseases..

i wish i can change what's going on in the world right now. sigh.

School

4 days since school started. i'm still trying to get used to my new timetable. it's just so packed.

i'm looking forward to tomorrow though, cos school starts at 10 and ends at 12. and it's a friday. wuuuunderfuuuuul. wonderful. :)

these few days have been really tiring. monday's exceptionally long. exceptionally. but it's all for french, so i guess, it was worth it. still, i think i'm gonna go to wednesday's lecture instead from next week on. i hope it's allowed.

french- the first lesson. i'd have to say, other than the fact that most of the people in the french class didnt know one another and that no one really talked to the person sitting next to them, french was fun. or at least the teacher made it interesting. or maybe it's just the whole thing about learning a new language that made me feel good about the lesson.well, i think i'll find out soon.

so my other lessons are reeaaally boring, but most of our new teachers are pretty alright this term. they're.. they're not that bad. there, i said it. most of my new teachers are not that bad at all. yay. if only the hours in school's not that long, and lessons weren't that boring, then everything'd be great. hah. if onlys. i can go on with plenty of "if onlys" and then feel lousy after this. i think i'll stop now.

but i guess my classmates do sometimes make the long hours in school easier to pass for me. they're a funny bunch, have i ever mentioned that? yeah, they are. :)

school's starting on monday. how unfortunate. it means there'll be lots of things that i'm gonna miss. plenty of things. dang it.

what i'm gonna miss:

- waking up late. reaaally late.
- Dorothy, Sofia, Blanche and Rose. yeah, "The Golden Girls".
- watching Oprah at 1pm everyday. (yes, i watch Oprah. so?)
- the feeling of boredom and having nothing to do.
- not studying.
- borrowing books from the library for leisure reading
- going to the airport for coffee
- the sound of no alarm clock ringing
- the feeling that i can go out as and when i feel like it
- "New Detectives" on Discovery Channel at 2pm
- meeting up with lizhen often
- slacking at home. literally slacking.

and this is just part of the list.

what i'm looking forward to:

- 1st French Lesson
- BCM with jean on fri
- Christmas.

yeah, that's about it.

i'm going to malaysia tomorrow. hope i'll make it back in time for Daredevil.
au revoir!

Deck the halls with boughs of Holly

tis' the season to be jolly...

ok, i know it's still Hari Raya & Deepavali season right now. but i can't help it. i can't wait for CHRISTMAS! that's right, i can't. Christmas trees are appearing in malls and supermarkets. i feel it, i feel it!

now i recall writing a letter to santa last christmas, asking for a Christmas tree and a trip to NYC's Rockefeller Square. Santa must've missed my letter amongst that big pile from kids everywhere else cos i sure didnt get what i wished for. i'm not writing anymore. (psst Santa...it's okay! i still believe in you!)

i hope this year's christmas' gonna be fun. at least memorable. anna and i have plans already. plans that occurred to us while grocery shopping. we're gonna wear christmas hats/reindeer-like head bands and walk down orchard or something. i hope i actually do have the courage to do that though. cos in singapore, people ARE going to stare. i'm gonna be so embarrassed.

this is gonna be so fun. :)

i hope the tradition remains after that. get caffeinated at starbucks on christmas eve and then carol crazily loud at her home or mine. then countdown to christmas in our extremely quiet neighbourhood, perhaps hear a "SHUT UP!" or two, and then continue softly.

wow i am that excited about christmas. i'm not even looking forward to my birthday as much. i hope it'll be cool at the end of the year. the weather, that is. something might ruin it though..judging our luck. i pray not.

anyway, i got into French for my CDS, which is making me really happy, for now at least. yay.

fa la la la la..la la la la...

ps: you dont have to be a christian to want to celebrate christmas. ;)

Hi

I AM BACK!

after half a month or so, i am back. yay.

more postings again, i hope.