in sheer randomness, i've decided to do a little post about... well, me.


do you really know the real me? or do you just think you do? so okay. some little things about me that i'd like to make known to everyone.


technically, i'm one who does not like being the center of attention. i'd much rather you see me as if i'm not there. i'd much rather be invisble from a huge crowd. that's right. so why was i ever in choir? *ponders* oh, right. i got dragged in. gee.


alright not to digress any further, i'm the kind of person who's easily embarrassed (anna can reassure that). yeah. the slightest thing gets me going, "dont want lah.. so paiseh.". now THAT, i should kick.


i go wild when i see my favourite stars on tv. i go wild when i see my favourite stars live at concerts. but i go quiet when i see the stars upfront. sometimes, i even lean on a pillar at the corner while everyone else rushes up to them. (lol ann baby.. YOU know what i'm talking abt) that's right. that's the kind of girl i am. now that has nothing to do with embarrassment. i just dont exactly, feel the "WOW-ness" when i see them in person. the closer we are the less amazed i feel. i think might need a psychiatrist.


i dont like being part of the crowd. no wait, strike that. i dont like crowds.


super low self esteem, that's what i have. it's hard to change that, cos it's pretty much something that i've built formed throughout years of failure. and i'm not even 17.


dont get me the wrong way. i do want to fit in. but i dont want to be one of the popular kids. i dont want to be cool. well, i'm not anyway and that's all right. i'm just someone who wants to survive .


now go, before i turn you off any further.